madamedevour

Times a tickin', the sound is driving me crazy. i have amounted to shit this week , hanging out with my other half and watching random sitcoms, drank some rum last night with coke and enjoyed it, eh but not like realllly enjoyed it. i am tired of putting my heart out on the line, really i am tired of being bitched out and taking it, yes i know what i shouuuld be doing, and i should be getting rid of you!! but it's not that bad, i like painful relationships it seems...i would rather be in it for the long run. 4 years is the longest i've ever spent on someone.

i want to expose myself, market myself, make money

i need nothing anymore but a shoulder to cry on, and girls to laugh and fart with. i don't ever want to grow up. my mom says that she must have cheated me, because she never exposed me to the adult lifestyle.i love my mom dearly and it's almost like i am loosing her to my premature ways..well paying bills is easy when you have the cash and going to work everyday for the check every two weeks is easy if you have a certain attitude. i am a business woman but i can't make my way through the world shaking hands and taking names. you know?? i want the real stuff, the juice. spiritually and physically.
bullshit is over and done with. ain't no fun anymore playing a role, especially when you know better. do i have to raise hell???