i am so tired... i went to bed at 8.30pm last night and was up at 6.30am this morning... im fucked hey. granted i spent the day in the pool yesterday (and yes, got a little bit sunburnt...) but i still shouldnt be so tired. i think maybe the last few weeks are starting to catch up. no amount of red bull can save me now....
i bought new shoes yesterday. they are so cute. little sling back ballet flats. they gave me blisters. so half way through today, i bought new shoes. they gave me blisters as well. i now have blisters upon blisters. its fucked.
i pose a question...
do you think that we, as humans, are supposed to find that one true mate and be with them forever? love the same one person, wake up next to the one same person, kiss and cuddle the one same person - for eternity? what if its not how we are programed? what if, through the course of evolution, we have become a race where comfortable and "the same" is not enough? how do we know if there really is that perfect person for us?
ok... so more like a series of questions. meh. ive been contemplating life lately. im just not happy with mine. well at least, i dont think so. i dont know really. i think i need a break from EVERYTHING. just a few days away by myself to work out what i want.... from my life, from jarrad, from work, from everything... i dont know who i am anymore... im lost. i just dont know....
sorry about the downer... dont feel sorry for me... i am the controller of my own life and destiny - i know.
i bought new shoes yesterday. they are so cute. little sling back ballet flats. they gave me blisters. so half way through today, i bought new shoes. they gave me blisters as well. i now have blisters upon blisters. its fucked.
i pose a question...
do you think that we, as humans, are supposed to find that one true mate and be with them forever? love the same one person, wake up next to the one same person, kiss and cuddle the one same person - for eternity? what if its not how we are programed? what if, through the course of evolution, we have become a race where comfortable and "the same" is not enough? how do we know if there really is that perfect person for us?
ok... so more like a series of questions. meh. ive been contemplating life lately. im just not happy with mine. well at least, i dont think so. i dont know really. i think i need a break from EVERYTHING. just a few days away by myself to work out what i want.... from my life, from jarrad, from work, from everything... i dont know who i am anymore... im lost. i just dont know....
sorry about the downer... dont feel sorry for me... i am the controller of my own life and destiny - i know.
phoenixgirl:
I have alwasy felt that people have soulmates...I finally found mine...and trust me, I also felt lost and depressed for a very long time, I didnt understand it, but now I do, and I was with someone else...that was a hard one to wrap my head around, I thought I was with "the one", but I was so wrong....