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Today is an "extra" Sunday for me...I should be working both jobs today but actually had the whole day off yesterday and won't go in to work until later today...I was semi-productive yesterday but it rained most of the day so much of production was of the indoor variety..I am slowly finding myself in my own life again. Why is it so easy to let go of oneself...but so hard to get it back????...Maybe you can't do it on your own...maybe that's the great riddle of the universe...maybe you have to ask for help..and that is soooo hard to do. But when you do..and you start coming back to yourself...then you have a whole new set of friends that know you a little bit better than the oes you had before you let go...and that can be an unexpected gift to make the process seem worthwhile.

I'll be brewing most of this upcoming week and trying to make room for the new brews...that's the problem with having a brewery that has been added onto rather than rebuilt...different points of view at different times. There was no guiding theme or personality throughout...just a little bit here...and a little bit there. But if the job was easy then they wouldn't need me..as we say in the industry, they could have just hired a "button pushing monkey" rather than a botton pushing homo sapien...Nice to know where one fits into the big picture...

Another storm pushed through last night and another sits on my doorstep, waiting for me to turn my back..but I have plenty of hot coffee and a day off...It didn't count on encountering me with my focus intact...so perhaps I can force it north..if I can't, expect rain or snow in a couple of days...After all, I'm still not my old self again...but maybe I never will be...I can live with that...