I love ambiguity..... it really never ends... you think one thing... then another happens... all with a few moments notice... then you have to refigure your life, and then once you're putting that last piece into place... BAM!!! the ambiguity thing happens all over again and your left searching for pieces again.... the best thing to do, in my situation, is for me to just accept this shit... do what I can but know that it will never go as planned, it will never come out as expected, and that is what keep life so damn fucking exciting my friends 
The moment we live in, the "now" is infinitessimally small.
I'm not even sure it ("now") exists.
I'm confusing myself now...