mackenzye

im listening to missed by pj harvey on repeat which is my song for my brother who is currently living with the mother that abused me and step father that molested me and beat the shit out of me daily its killing me not having sylvester with me i love him and would die for him i have to journal for the phych ass hole as if he will some how bring light to my already well lit situation...im so sick...i just cant take this shit anymore i feel like im shit for running away without him all those years ago but i didnt know where i was going and i didnt want to put him in any other harm...im broken without him i bleed for him everyday they think im suicidal now and have had me in the hospital with a sitter lilke hello i fucking came to you all for help...no im just going to kill myself...i was just cutting to release this i cant get if out of me...my heart hurts....these pills dont stop the thoughts the tears the cutting i put smiles on for those that worry but i cant do it for much longer...no ive missed him.