machinshin

I'm diabetic. I have a non-functioning organ, my pancreas, which is at this very moment inhabiting valuable real estate somewhere in my chest cavity. I do not have the ability to produce natural insulin, so, I have to inject synthetic insulin into my body at intervals [read: whenever I start to feel like shit] during the day. I do not take good care of my disease, and I really don't like having it. Now that I think about it, I'm not entirely sure it is a disease. However it is a 'sickness', so I'll refer to it as that if necessary. I don't take my blood sugar before I eat and manage my insulin injections based on that, and the amount of carbohydrate grams that I'll be eating. I drink Mountain Dew and Mello Yello all the damn time, I eat candy and all sorts of bread, and never prick a finger. This is one thing in my life that really requires my attention, or at least it should. I hate it for that reason. I can deal with feeling all loopy and being nauseated at times. It's the fact that I now have to take responsibility for something, or I'm going to take 30 or 40 years off of my life. That's the really aggravating thing. I'm not worried about dying that much either, I just know my mother's going to out live me, just so she can tell me that I should've switched to diet soda and cut some of the sweets on my deathbed. Also, I used to be able to eat whatever I wanted, and all that excess sugar would pass out of my body through my urine. Not anymore. Now I gain weight, and have to deal with all this bullshit. If I tried to sell my pancreas on the black market, do you think it would have to be tested for functionality first?