machiavel

Hmmm...I am thinking about changing my SG name....It was something that does not have a great deal of meaning for me, so it makes it difficult saying it at SG gatherings...I feel a little silly with the name. I am having a rollercoasterish existance at the moment...there are many things that are going wonderfully well in my life, but many more that are not. I am trying not to give in, but it is a struggle. I am going through a heavy questioning of self phase, I guess maybe early midlife crisis. I am looking at what I have been able to accomplish in my short time on this planet( and no I don't have any delusions of being from another planet) and I am not too happy with the results. I know I am here for a reason I am just not sure what that is.....it is the age old question......of course I am prone to the overly-dramatic. I spent the weekend in NYC, went to the SG fashion show. I was not feeling overly social so it may not have seemed like I was there at all.....unfortunately part of me wasn't.....I do like New York, but I must say I do not miss living there, I really think Philadelphia may be the place for me....now to only find some way of supporting myself if I move there.....well we will see.....I wish everyone well, and I am hoping to be more of a presence here again