machiavel

I think I am getting myself over my infatuation......She is obviously too busy, or too nice to express pointed disinterest........so essentially I give up on that one...yes, I say that now but one positive move on her part will have me back where I was.......I am a sucker actually, if anyone displays interest in me I become very interested in them automatically, unless of course there is no chemistry whatsoever........I think its due to the fact that I never think anyone will be interested in me, especially beautiful women.......so here I am again, wondering if I will ever find anything or anyone.......The hardest thing is keeping yourself company when you do not like spending time with yourself......