macbastard

Today is a "Non-day" Really I did nothing to validate my existence today. Woke up, worked, drove to gym, worked out, Made love to my t.v., took shower, drank scotch and soda, and now here I am at my journal. Soon I will read "to kill a mockingbird" and try to go to sleep.

I recently ended a relationship with a woman. And by ended it I mean: She dumped me...But hey whos counting? The problem is is that she called me and wants me to come see her show. Cause she thinks Im a "Swell guy" But she understands if I "don't call."

I don't want to be a total dick by not calling or seeing the show. Because I am SURE I will see her again. And if I didn't go or call, it would be REALLY awkward. But at the same time I don't want to appear in any way weak or hurt. I think going to the show and saying "Good job,I have to go" is a good option, no? Save the fact that it would be really messy on the inside for me to see her right now.

I've been dating, but ithis girl keeps entering my head like a physic attack. I would have been JUST FINE if she hadn't called. Now it causes me problems all over again.


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