macabaret

she can't think straight, her mind feels like it's spinning. her emotions are all over the place, it burns behind behind eyes and everything is fuzzy.
hopelessness, jealousy, frustration, relieved, insulted, just all around antsy.
wanting to scream something to him, anything to open his eyes and so he can see she's sitting right here!

kiss her, hug her, hold her, love her!

the hope is hard to believe in, but it is always steady and always there no matter how bad she wants it to disappear so she'll feel no heartbreak or disappointment.

wishing, hoping, waiting for him to notice her noticing him.