so... i got back with my "ex".. why do i hate that word so much? its so, grown up sounding. bleh..
it has only been a few weeks of apart time, and the feelings are still there.. but are they? do i even know what feelings are? i've been with one girl. one person in my life that i can say i loved. that i want to say i've loved. i dont even know if i can say we were every apart... we both said it, but i dont know if we felt it. god... i hate life.. i hate relationships (i think).
i said," i dont want to make anything official yet. i'd like sometime to think about it. i wont "see" anyone, if you dont. (as if i could see anyone if i wanted too) and we'll just take our time and not force anything." she asked me how long i needed. i said i didnt know, but i'd like till july 4 at least. (we're going out of town for AX) i figure ill see how things go there, and if she can control her jealousy.
sometimes i dont know though.. i feel like i've reached the peak of our relationship. that probably comes off really bad. but, i dont know. im not sorry for anything me and her have done together. im glad i experienced soo much with her. and i hope to stay friends like we started out. i'll always love her... no matter what. she'll always be a very special person to me...
i cant finish this now.. ~undone~
it has only been a few weeks of apart time, and the feelings are still there.. but are they? do i even know what feelings are? i've been with one girl. one person in my life that i can say i loved. that i want to say i've loved. i dont even know if i can say we were every apart... we both said it, but i dont know if we felt it. god... i hate life.. i hate relationships (i think).
i said," i dont want to make anything official yet. i'd like sometime to think about it. i wont "see" anyone, if you dont. (as if i could see anyone if i wanted too) and we'll just take our time and not force anything." she asked me how long i needed. i said i didnt know, but i'd like till july 4 at least. (we're going out of town for AX) i figure ill see how things go there, and if she can control her jealousy.
sometimes i dont know though.. i feel like i've reached the peak of our relationship. that probably comes off really bad. but, i dont know. im not sorry for anything me and her have done together. im glad i experienced soo much with her. and i hope to stay friends like we started out. i'll always love her... no matter what. she'll always be a very special person to me...
i cant finish this now.. ~undone~
relationships suck. It's soo much easier to just be cold and heartless. I was just fine being a gold diggin' bitch until Greg came along. We almost broke up this weekend. He such a nice guy but outta no where sometimes he start actin' a fool. Normally I'd just dump him and not give a shit. I must be getting old.
Yeah, relationships = drama pain and confusion. But on the flip side, they mean garunteed sex. Oh yeah some other good stuff too.
is this the chaz that i went on a date to blackbeards with like......4 YEARS AGO???