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m_bethany

damned lost angel from venice beach

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Friday Dec 10, 2004

Dec 10, 2004
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save some face, you know you've only got one
change your ways while you're young
boy, one day you'll be a man
oh girl, he'll help you understand
smile like you mean it
smile like you mean it

looking back at sunsets on the Eastside
we lost track of the time
dreams aren't what they used to be
some things sat by so carelessly

smile like you mean it


really? how interesting it is that the girl needs the guy... wah wah. oh well, i still love the song. the killers. i finally got the cd back from my ex roomie. the one i was so rude to last night.

it is offical. i am a horrible person.

i messed up with another person, aired some inappropriate laundry out in the air at dinner with the ex-wife, the new roomies the couple, and the prince charming along with my recovering introverted exroomie. and i messed up.

i was nervous. i had some wine, that was it. it came out. the table was aware but let it go because of me... but not her.

and now i have to apologize again. for the rudeness that is my policy of life as an open book. not everyone lives that way, i know - but in that particular situation, we all do not care too much and she was the only one at the table who minded. does not matter, i knew better.

they say that small minds discuss others - this is true. and i was that small mind last night. discussing the sexual history of the one she calls boyfriend at the table with two people she just met and one she has only known a few times.

how do i redeam myself? an apology. deep felt apology from my heart. and a new resolution to order cranberry n tonic next time. and i admitted to her i thought i had a drinking problem. i am afraid she will not speak to me again as well as her boyfriend, the guy i just made up with for being too much of a flirt with an uninterested party. i am so stubborn.

on the bright side, got to sleep next to my man all night. we said we could never sleep comfortably in the same bed. we slept last night until 4am, awoken by the slightest outside noise (at the same time), watched tivo for two hours, slept for one more, got up and got going... kissed my man goodbye.

hate that, kissing good bye. i want to kiss him hello every day. i think i am head over feet. :le sigh:

might go to the SGLA thing. i am informed that there might be some less than happy parties about my attendence. well, this is a diverse website and i would hope that a community such as this would welcome someone of my... well, lifestyle. besides, little miss em aka chickwithwings wants me to go, apparently i need to attend to get in. okay, so i attend. let me see how inventive a gift i can create. maybe i can meet some of you all there as well. biggrin

maybe, maybe... until then, work at 6am both sat & sun. DAMN THE MAN, SAVE THE EMPIRE!

mahalo and *puss*puss*,
~ the angel* wink
VIEW 13 of 13 COMMENTS
ixion:
Hey I miss you... I've been so preoccupied running the burlesque... I haven't been reading journals much... and now when I read yours... I feel like I missed too many past entries to understand WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON...?

Anyway, just wanted you to know that I still loves ya!!

kiss
Dec 16, 2004
falias:
save some face, you know you've only got one
change your ways while you're young
boy, one day you'll be a man
oh girl, he'll help you understand
smile like you mean it
smile like you mean it

looking back at sunsets on the Eastside
we lost track of the time
dreams aren't what they used to be
some things sat by so carelessly

smile like you mean it

i think i am going to broow this for my friend
dade37
Dec 16, 2004

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