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m_bethany

damned lost angel from venice beach

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Friday Sep 17, 2004

Sep 17, 2004
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JOURNAL:

Sorry no updates all week!

Having no structure in my world is getting to me.. and my sleeping habits.

So my stepdad is hiring me to clean up his office literally and on the computer, his current accountant guy is sucking... so there is a little money coming in... and I have to go check out a few more places.. bigger bar/gaming type oriented places. They seem to be the big thing around here..

I JUST WANT A SCHEDULE!!! then I can sleep on a pattern and get my life better organized... right now I am drifting aimlessly in the cosmos...

Wednesday night I went out with the new guy... he needs a nickname. Let me see, he is newly separated from his wife, he is extremely well hung, so sweet, knows wine and food, takes me to A.O.C. (one of the top ten restaurants in Los Angeles according to Los Angeles Magazine) where I know the manager cuz I am cool, and he treats me like a queen. Oh and his house is all done in cheesy 70 attaire, but it is all that way so it feels like a blast from the past.. but done right. We can call him the Prince of Portia for kicks... how about that?

Dinner went well, we even had complimentary glasses of wine from the manager who I know from my last job, she is so sweet.. and the food was fantastic... and so was the sex at the end of the night... I am just accepting that he is more than likely using me for my hot young body and intelligence (we do talk... a lot) but also for companionship. I feel for his current situation and also love his sweet ways with me and huge dong. It seems to work well so far, and it has only been since the saturday of this last week that the flirting started... cool. wink Fine by me. Oh and did I mention he is VP of Marketing/PR at his work, he was in charge of organizing the whole premiere for Exorcist: The Beginning. Yeah, go me. biggrin

The ex update? I am sure you all give a shit,... but he goes in here anyway. He is broken up with the live in but she is still living there. I stopped by yesterday on my way out of town (although not REALLY on my way) and said hi, he has the girl in the back room so I was denied my lunch request. No worries, apparently I looked thin to everyone who saw me yesterday... that was nice to be told 3x... so I ate McDonalds since I am on the "no money" diet. Great. I am still scratching my head on why I miss him... but then I see him and look in his eyes and I swoon.. it is only being in love now.. that is it. blush But sometimes love just ain't enough...

Saw Prince Charming yesterday as well, he has been MIA due to chimo theropy but is doing better now... I miss him. I just want to settle down with him on a vineyard in Greece or somewhere not in the US and be happy. love blush I am embarassed to say that I harbor any fantasy as such, but lately I have just wanted to settle down and be happy with my settled beautiful beloved one... and live life together! Stupid 22 year old female hormones... puke But anyway, he misses me, wants dinner soon enough here with me and my ex-wife. He wants to do coke together... I am still nervous about it but it could be a good time.. the only problem is it is "the truth syrum" for me, so I might say something I might regret saying... like my little fantasy listed above for instance...

I have $15 in my checking account, $5 in my savings, and about $3.75 in change in my car. Time to go to work (I am here in the office, just have to do it). I need to at the least earn the pay for the day by getting all the paperwork strewn all over the desk and tables in order... the nightmare that begins.

All the angel wishes for is her knight in shining armor to wisk her away on his white horse to the life I think I deserve... but we all deserve different things and who am I to say what I should and should not get?

I just want my Prince Charming. How do I know that? By the relief I felt from walking into his house yesterday and receiving a huge hug... I felt like I had come home. shocked

yeah, I am shocked too.
Mahalo lovers,
~ the angel* wink skull puke

oh and I was sick-y poo yesterday.. that was fun.
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