JOURNAL:
So, amazingly enough, I am again surprised by my lack of faith in myself. It is like I KNOW how awesome and better off I am without having to deal with my lame ex and his current live-in girl situation... but I cannot avoid it as I discovered last night.
Since I am working this week on the Westside (Malibu, close enough), I am staying with my married friends in Silver Lake. Last night, after a very successful dinner and chill time Date #3 with printgod (more on that later), I had to drive down to James Beach to pick up the husband since he was chilling down there without his car. I have no problem, they are opening their house to me and being so sweet and giving, they called me a "true friend" last night and that means a fucking shit load esp. with my loser friends who did not help me move lately... but I am getting side-tracked.
Anyway, so I go to pick him up and I am all prettied from my date, cute little 80 inspired with a 20s feel outfit (wish you could have seen it) and he informs me that my ex has the husband's work bag in the ex's car. Great. So we have to wait in front of James Beach for 10 minutes when I was told 20 minutes before that the ex was coming by.. and he lives 4 minutes from the place. Bullshit... waiting around. Again - that is why I broke up with him! So I do not have to wait around for this fucker! The ex shows up finally and he has his replacement for me with him... on a 4 minute errand from home....
***SEGWAY (however it is spelled)***
Now, I do not understand things with other people's relationships but my friend the husband decided to enlighten me while venting about the encounter in the car. Apparently this girl spends her whole day and night doing nothing but cleaning up my ex's house and doing lines... allegedly.
So when he comes home or she shows herself at his work, he gets a perminant attachment. Now, when you live with someone, you need alone time or just space because I do not care who you are - you are bound to get tired of your significant other if you are around them constantly. Or maybe it is just me.
So the point is he cannot go anywhere without her. And my friend the husband vented to me that he wants nothing to do with this new girl because she is distant and just rude at times to him - and my ex is his best friend... and it has nothing to do with our friendship, I do not care about that shit. Guys need guy time just like girls need it, and that is why he does not like this chick - she does not let them HAVE the guy time necessary. Now, when we broke up, I encourage my ex's and my circle of friends to remain friends with us both... it is all good in my book. But when the ex & I were together, we were around each other a lot but we both had at least two night a week where we went out with our separate groups of friends and did our own things to keep our lives going... being social without your mate is just as important as intergrating them into your social life. In my experience anyway...
***SEGUE END*** (monkeybutt corrected me, yeah!)
The truck pulls up, my ex pops out and my friend the husband grabs his bag while playing nice as my ex's live-in comes around the car and tries playing nice with my friend and ignores me. Fine - WHATEVS. But I am stoned pretty good and was not prepared to deal with that much at the time so I am so ready to leave. I start playing tired, do not get involved in the conversation and we get to leave reasonably in a few minutes because my friend could see I was not handling the situation very well from the inside... and he knows me well enough to read my body language and unconfortable stanze. We leave, I am happy. But upset.
I have to go into his shop today and get my print of the Santa Monica Pier before the original structure was burned and damaged by that storm way back when.... really beautiful piece. I am not looking forward to it... except that I am looking mighty fine today and that will not hurt my smile when I walk in there... take that Bi-otch, not yours anymore and doing just fine.
As for my date, printgod and I went to sushi. I must admit (and have) I am a huge fan of sake... I come off like an alcoholic, but I am okay with that.
It is like admitting I am a drug addict... I AM a pothead, why deny it? Anyway, so we "talked business" through most of it (which I luv!) and I am really warming up to him. *He might read this... almost guarenteed but hey...* If nothing else, he rocks to kick it with... but I am not sure about the rest. Definately not discounted any possibility, but I am definately too broken to take on something new like that - I WILL hurt him if we go that way right now. Let us keep it casual...
And besides, Prince Charming is still in the running and he is priority - he is the one who has been around for awhile (like 4 years I say yet again... just for those walking into this) and I did get to leave my loofa and body wash there last week. He has my heart, always has - but I am not sure if he can step up when it is needed... not yet, but it is on the horizon.
Other than that, just chilling. I think I am going to kick it at my friend's house tonight - they have a premiere to go to for that stupid Exorcist movie coming out, the "pre-qual" as it were. So I think I am going to rent movies, find a dub, and kick it.
Anyone know a good source for greens out here? My guy is M.I.A. since saturday and I do not want to hit him up again until later because I called him three times on saturday night (but I had a client for him in addition to me... he IS a drug dealer besides a friend) and I do not want to harass him more than I have to. I hate being harassed, even when I was in that profession.... allegedly
anyway. NOT CONFIRMED.
Might be able to fill y'all in about this evening's visit to see the ex at work... I think the girlie is going to make a point to be around because he stated loudly last night he would see me today... great. One more thing to deal with.... it will soon be done though.
Final Thought:
Have you noticed as you grow up (18-25 ish really... sometimes older though) that your friends are either, depending on your life path, falling behind or just not up to your maturity level? I am feeling it big time with my friends in the 909. It makes me want to run back to LA and never leave again....
Or move to NYC. Then I can see Ixion and participate in the Burlesque shows where he is and actually make some ca$h instead of struggling like I am.
Enough out of me! Latz.
~ the kelly angel* 
So, amazingly enough, I am again surprised by my lack of faith in myself. It is like I KNOW how awesome and better off I am without having to deal with my lame ex and his current live-in girl situation... but I cannot avoid it as I discovered last night.
Since I am working this week on the Westside (Malibu, close enough), I am staying with my married friends in Silver Lake. Last night, after a very successful dinner and chill time Date #3 with printgod (more on that later), I had to drive down to James Beach to pick up the husband since he was chilling down there without his car. I have no problem, they are opening their house to me and being so sweet and giving, they called me a "true friend" last night and that means a fucking shit load esp. with my loser friends who did not help me move lately... but I am getting side-tracked.
Anyway, so I go to pick him up and I am all prettied from my date, cute little 80 inspired with a 20s feel outfit (wish you could have seen it) and he informs me that my ex has the husband's work bag in the ex's car. Great. So we have to wait in front of James Beach for 10 minutes when I was told 20 minutes before that the ex was coming by.. and he lives 4 minutes from the place. Bullshit... waiting around. Again - that is why I broke up with him! So I do not have to wait around for this fucker! The ex shows up finally and he has his replacement for me with him... on a 4 minute errand from home....
***SEGWAY (however it is spelled)***
Now, I do not understand things with other people's relationships but my friend the husband decided to enlighten me while venting about the encounter in the car. Apparently this girl spends her whole day and night doing nothing but cleaning up my ex's house and doing lines... allegedly.
So when he comes home or she shows herself at his work, he gets a perminant attachment. Now, when you live with someone, you need alone time or just space because I do not care who you are - you are bound to get tired of your significant other if you are around them constantly. Or maybe it is just me.
So the point is he cannot go anywhere without her. And my friend the husband vented to me that he wants nothing to do with this new girl because she is distant and just rude at times to him - and my ex is his best friend... and it has nothing to do with our friendship, I do not care about that shit. Guys need guy time just like girls need it, and that is why he does not like this chick - she does not let them HAVE the guy time necessary. Now, when we broke up, I encourage my ex's and my circle of friends to remain friends with us both... it is all good in my book. But when the ex & I were together, we were around each other a lot but we both had at least two night a week where we went out with our separate groups of friends and did our own things to keep our lives going... being social without your mate is just as important as intergrating them into your social life. In my experience anyway...
***SEGUE END*** (monkeybutt corrected me, yeah!)
The truck pulls up, my ex pops out and my friend the husband grabs his bag while playing nice as my ex's live-in comes around the car and tries playing nice with my friend and ignores me. Fine - WHATEVS. But I am stoned pretty good and was not prepared to deal with that much at the time so I am so ready to leave. I start playing tired, do not get involved in the conversation and we get to leave reasonably in a few minutes because my friend could see I was not handling the situation very well from the inside... and he knows me well enough to read my body language and unconfortable stanze. We leave, I am happy. But upset.
I have to go into his shop today and get my print of the Santa Monica Pier before the original structure was burned and damaged by that storm way back when.... really beautiful piece. I am not looking forward to it... except that I am looking mighty fine today and that will not hurt my smile when I walk in there... take that Bi-otch, not yours anymore and doing just fine.
As for my date, printgod and I went to sushi. I must admit (and have) I am a huge fan of sake... I come off like an alcoholic, but I am okay with that.
It is like admitting I am a drug addict... I AM a pothead, why deny it? Anyway, so we "talked business" through most of it (which I luv!) and I am really warming up to him. *He might read this... almost guarenteed but hey...* If nothing else, he rocks to kick it with... but I am not sure about the rest. Definately not discounted any possibility, but I am definately too broken to take on something new like that - I WILL hurt him if we go that way right now. Let us keep it casual...
And besides, Prince Charming is still in the running and he is priority - he is the one who has been around for awhile (like 4 years I say yet again... just for those walking into this) and I did get to leave my loofa and body wash there last week. He has my heart, always has - but I am not sure if he can step up when it is needed... not yet, but it is on the horizon.
Other than that, just chilling. I think I am going to kick it at my friend's house tonight - they have a premiere to go to for that stupid Exorcist movie coming out, the "pre-qual" as it were. So I think I am going to rent movies, find a dub, and kick it.
Anyone know a good source for greens out here? My guy is M.I.A. since saturday and I do not want to hit him up again until later because I called him three times on saturday night (but I had a client for him in addition to me... he IS a drug dealer besides a friend) and I do not want to harass him more than I have to. I hate being harassed, even when I was in that profession.... allegedly
anyway. NOT CONFIRMED.
Might be able to fill y'all in about this evening's visit to see the ex at work... I think the girlie is going to make a point to be around because he stated loudly last night he would see me today... great. One more thing to deal with.... it will soon be done though.
Final Thought:
Have you noticed as you grow up (18-25 ish really... sometimes older though) that your friends are either, depending on your life path, falling behind or just not up to your maturity level? I am feeling it big time with my friends in the 909. It makes me want to run back to LA and never leave again....
Or move to NYC. Then I can see Ixion and participate in the Burlesque shows where he is and actually make some ca$h instead of struggling like I am.
Enough out of me! Latz.
~ the kelly angel*
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but I like the ending the best... where you meet up with IXION in NYC and burlesque your way to the top!!