m_bethany

JOURNAL:

I am a turbo slut.

I had a meeting-up with a really hot guy from Chino Hills last night, we made out, he so was not smooth enough... and yeah, I am seriously not impressed.

So am I the only one who has found great sexual partners just out of dumb luck the last few gos? I have NEVER had as bad a partner as last night... he so was not even trying to help me out. Fuck that shit, I am sorry. You do not earn it or at least keep Ms. Kitty interested, get the fuck out. And then the bastard attempts to "crash" at my place and persists on trying to fool around some more. COME ON guy, are you kidding me? And then when I called him out, he made it like I was being super sensative for saying "excuse me, no" to his wandering hands... what an ass.

He was really pretty though. Blonde hair, above average body, ride a motorcycle. LOSER. Even in foreplay he was blown away at the abilities I myself possess... I am so sticking with older men. Guys my age have no fucking experience - literally.

Yeah, that was bad.

SUBJECT CHANGE.

I am working for bitchmonster boss three days next week and I have Monday to restaurant-hop in Upland to get a fucking job. I should be able to do it easily, I just want to be hired and done with. I am going to try to get a job at this one restaurant that, if it was in LA, I would have no chance ... but out there I might be able to swing it. ::Crosses Fingers::

Talked to the ex online yesterday. It was a good talk. I have just decided I am going to just make my primary focus in the next six months be A) work towards Paris Hilton style in shape [I have been there, I can do it again], then B) pay off all the money I wasted on shit the last 4 years, and then C) read until school starts for me...

I am going to start in the Spring, I missed Fall enrollment by a few days... I could try and get in, but I have not even moved yet.. and I need to get a handle on my bills then get a flow to my schedule. Once those are rolling, school will fit right in like a glove.

That is it. I do not know what else to say. Prince Charming informs me he had another MRI yesterday (so we did not hang out obviously) and he might have to do surgery. He was all "you will visit me in the hospital right?" and I answered "I won't leave your side while you are there..."

WOOPS! Oh fuck, I did not just say that.

Before I could retract it, it was politely ignored by him... I let it slip. I just am so worried, I am getting the vibe it is not going to be an easy procedure, and I do not like when I get these specific feelings about situations.. not that I am psychic, just sometimes the energy around you is just making you...like you can tell. You know? Hard to explain.

So we are rescheduled for tonight... I just hope he does not flake again.

I have not fixed my camera phone still. Fucking Sprint sucks right now... and it is not their fault. I just hate not being able to load pics on here.

I miss good lovers. I feel like I will have to wait awhile for another one... although Prince Charming is getting more and more impressive... not that he was not before, but the ex was what I LUSTED. I am beginning to see a lust for him now too... especially with all the naughty things we do.

I am frisky. Bastards, all of them.
Damn Nation.
Mahalo,
~ the angel*

I am moving this weekend, wish me luck.