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Lesson #4 - Do not see the ex until you are sure you can move on and NOT get sucked into remembering how perfect things WERE (that is when we conveniently forget the reasons for the break-up).
Let me tell you a little story....
Saturday night, getting off work and looking to get off otherwise, Kelly was a smartie who decided to drop by the ex's house. Now, he just moved in a little while ago and has no land line yet but also doesn't have his cell phone anymore so "dropping by" is actually a way of re-establishing the term "calling" on someone like it was back in the days before telephones.
So she drives up, Kelly has been a little neglected AND stressed so she is looking for a little release (if you know what I mean). He is there, about to go get a drink with his ex, we shall call her Jane (his ex right before me the first time we dated, basically Kelly's guard is up with her). But when I walk up, not only is he stoked to see Kelly, he waves Jane on to go meet people for drinks alone and ushers Kelly inside while he looks for his faceplate for his car radio. Well the inevitable happened....
... and now Kelly is being considered as part of a reconcilation project by her ex known as the conditional "Get Back Together but not really..." and all she can think is "w.t.f. mate?" ~
Enough with the third person (although I jump into once in awhile, bere with me), I just want to have him as my F.T.F. (FYI - friends that fuck) and have a supportive friendly relationship otherwise. This obviously is too much to ask for, and I think I am alone in the department of "what we all want in a partner". The rest of the world wants the house, cars, 2.5 kids, white picket fence crap. Want to know what Kelly wants?
Kelly is the bread winner, she has a few partners (male and female), they live with her and take care of the li'l ones (hopefully adopted or her own), she has a little hottie abercrombie model guy she bangs outside of her home life (usually lunch breaks), and life is good - she is the dictator.
I know it is messed up, but I would be happy this way. W.T.F.?
So I guess I just can't get what I want even though the ex sex is so good... I guess I will take what I can and see where the negotiations go. We shall have Lesson #5 soon enough...
Sexually satified but festering again already....
your instructor,
~ the kelly angel
Lesson #4 - Do not see the ex until you are sure you can move on and NOT get sucked into remembering how perfect things WERE (that is when we conveniently forget the reasons for the break-up).
Let me tell you a little story....
Saturday night, getting off work and looking to get off otherwise, Kelly was a smartie who decided to drop by the ex's house. Now, he just moved in a little while ago and has no land line yet but also doesn't have his cell phone anymore so "dropping by" is actually a way of re-establishing the term "calling" on someone like it was back in the days before telephones.
So she drives up, Kelly has been a little neglected AND stressed so she is looking for a little release (if you know what I mean). He is there, about to go get a drink with his ex, we shall call her Jane (his ex right before me the first time we dated, basically Kelly's guard is up with her). But when I walk up, not only is he stoked to see Kelly, he waves Jane on to go meet people for drinks alone and ushers Kelly inside while he looks for his faceplate for his car radio. Well the inevitable happened....
... and now Kelly is being considered as part of a reconcilation project by her ex known as the conditional "Get Back Together but not really..." and all she can think is "w.t.f. mate?" ~
Enough with the third person (although I jump into once in awhile, bere with me), I just want to have him as my F.T.F. (FYI - friends that fuck) and have a supportive friendly relationship otherwise. This obviously is too much to ask for, and I think I am alone in the department of "what we all want in a partner". The rest of the world wants the house, cars, 2.5 kids, white picket fence crap. Want to know what Kelly wants?
Kelly is the bread winner, she has a few partners (male and female), they live with her and take care of the li'l ones (hopefully adopted or her own), she has a little hottie abercrombie model guy she bangs outside of her home life (usually lunch breaks), and life is good - she is the dictator.
I know it is messed up, but I would be happy this way. W.T.F.?
So I guess I just can't get what I want even though the ex sex is so good... I guess I will take what I can and see where the negotiations go. We shall have Lesson #5 soon enough...
Sexually satified but festering again already....
your instructor,
~ the kelly angel