well thanks for the comments. I have an update: he is a friend of my close friend Eric so it is all good. I will forever attribute that blackout to the other four I have had in my lifetime as TAYLOR.
a few people know her, she is my Taylor Durden. We all have one. She is mine. And she does all the things I am impulsed to do by my instincts in my true nature. I am a female for the first time in many lifetimes on this planet. I used to be a warrior and a warlord. I got a message on my cellphone today from my buddy Eric that night at the bar after I left with his buddy telling me, "dude, you the man." ha, I love her but she is not safe for my wellbeing. she is a danger to myself.
It was the struggle of the century
and all the grown men came to see
the girl who tamed the tiger yeah yeah
the heart of southern Lovebirds
they found her under the sea
she said she came from cell block three
the girl hit hard like a barracuda baby
she floated on air like a crest of wave
she was a primal institution she was a danger to herself yeah
Mad loving by the cold hearted
Take a deep breath babe cos we just started
I believe that I can find a balance to this creature I am. She is amazing, I will more than likely post some shots that my ex will take, he is more than likely going to be shooting me the entire time I am home. I will it to happen. He is my slave and must worship me for the goddess I am while I am home for the six days. I am home from March 2nd through March 7th, this year for the ex's birthday. It will be our 4 year anniversary this year on his birthday, and the year we were dating intensely for it we attending a show at http://www.magiccastle.com. that was also the night he decided to tell me he loved me even though we were two months into our relationship. I choked on my apple martini, the waiter who heard the conversation laughed. I remember that night clearly, I almost had a heart attack.
my visit in LA will be a telling sign of things to come. I have to make some decisions this next birthday year, I am going to be 24, a powerful year for a taurus and an 8 in numberology. who knows, I might get married this year? I might reunite with my god the writer/prince charming and have another torid love affair year with him.. I could do it with him while I am married. there are nothing but possiblities I Know. I may meet someone completely new and start a torid spontaneous loved affair with him while I am living in Greece in Santorini.
Yep that is back on the table.becuase I left the writer a nice message on his cellphone when I was having a bad day last monday about not stepping up to his words and howhe gave me shit for doing that to him with my move to NYC. So I am like "I am here now Bitch but where are you?" although it was highly inappropriate at the time beacuse of the state of mind I was in, I figure that if he does care as much as I need him to, he will call me regardless - knowing I was in a state and need him. I will not need him more than this without a positive outcome to this test. If he fails, never again. Not for me, he is not strong enough for me to survive, I CHOOSE not to.
Remember: I can have anything I want this year. This is my year for all I need and want in this world. happiness from duty is this year.. and those whoare strong enough will be my strongholds in adversity. they are my supports. Ans needing them is enough.
I am strongest alone and happy with my choices. Let's get back to that. Because I am a gift, a treasure, a fucking experience. Because I AM Captain Jack Sparrow.
i am so happy being that girl.
ROAR bitch. Roar.
a few people know her, she is my Taylor Durden. We all have one. She is mine. And she does all the things I am impulsed to do by my instincts in my true nature. I am a female for the first time in many lifetimes on this planet. I used to be a warrior and a warlord. I got a message on my cellphone today from my buddy Eric that night at the bar after I left with his buddy telling me, "dude, you the man." ha, I love her but she is not safe for my wellbeing. she is a danger to myself.
It was the struggle of the century
and all the grown men came to see
the girl who tamed the tiger yeah yeah
the heart of southern Lovebirds
they found her under the sea
she said she came from cell block three
the girl hit hard like a barracuda baby
she floated on air like a crest of wave
she was a primal institution she was a danger to herself yeah
Mad loving by the cold hearted
Take a deep breath babe cos we just started
I believe that I can find a balance to this creature I am. She is amazing, I will more than likely post some shots that my ex will take, he is more than likely going to be shooting me the entire time I am home. I will it to happen. He is my slave and must worship me for the goddess I am while I am home for the six days. I am home from March 2nd through March 7th, this year for the ex's birthday. It will be our 4 year anniversary this year on his birthday, and the year we were dating intensely for it we attending a show at http://www.magiccastle.com. that was also the night he decided to tell me he loved me even though we were two months into our relationship. I choked on my apple martini, the waiter who heard the conversation laughed. I remember that night clearly, I almost had a heart attack.
my visit in LA will be a telling sign of things to come. I have to make some decisions this next birthday year, I am going to be 24, a powerful year for a taurus and an 8 in numberology. who knows, I might get married this year? I might reunite with my god the writer/prince charming and have another torid love affair year with him.. I could do it with him while I am married. there are nothing but possiblities I Know. I may meet someone completely new and start a torid spontaneous loved affair with him while I am living in Greece in Santorini.
Yep that is back on the table.becuase I left the writer a nice message on his cellphone when I was having a bad day last monday about not stepping up to his words and howhe gave me shit for doing that to him with my move to NYC. So I am like "I am here now Bitch but where are you?" although it was highly inappropriate at the time beacuse of the state of mind I was in, I figure that if he does care as much as I need him to, he will call me regardless - knowing I was in a state and need him. I will not need him more than this without a positive outcome to this test. If he fails, never again. Not for me, he is not strong enough for me to survive, I CHOOSE not to.
Remember: I can have anything I want this year. This is my year for all I need and want in this world. happiness from duty is this year.. and those whoare strong enough will be my strongholds in adversity. they are my supports. Ans needing them is enough.
I am strongest alone and happy with my choices. Let's get back to that. Because I am a gift, a treasure, a fucking experience. Because I AM Captain Jack Sparrow.
i am so happy being that girl.
ROAR bitch. Roar.
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