"I'm no Barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
So I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rides out of mud
Why do...
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I'm not your baby girl
So I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rides out of mud
Why do...
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so I am sitting here at work... and not really wanting to work. I am so tired of people with the stupid response to "what is your fetish?" of "um, nipple torture, body worship, some light spanking?!?!" - tell you what, when you figure out what you like to do that is BDSM related and not just you getting to grope me, let me know....
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allied:
Wait a second... I know I've been terrible about stopping by your journal to say hi, but I had no idea you'd gotten a new job. And one that I would love to be a client of, if I lived in California. Anyway, congratulations. 
fucked up...
and awake.
i love to smoke. the cigarette is so good... it is so bad though. I have no chance at singing my songs to the producer if I keep smoking. fuck. got to quit. soon.
but it tastes so good at night, the insomiac that I am. who am I kidding? I need to choose soon, greens or nicotine. fuck.
my prince...
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and awake.
i love to smoke. the cigarette is so good... it is so bad though. I have no chance at singing my songs to the producer if I keep smoking. fuck. got to quit. soon.
but it tastes so good at night, the insomiac that I am. who am I kidding? I need to choose soon, greens or nicotine. fuck.
my prince...
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syer_lps:
OI OI How is it going?
venicechris:
Bet you didn't know my family tree dates back over 400 years to Bavaria. Odd how this just happens to be the same date and time the supposed "Illuminati" began their quest for world domination. Oh, not just world domination like Hittler, Alexander, Ceasar etc. they wanted the populace obsequious. Good fuckin' luck guys.
as commentary on today's dream come true photoset of Katie and Robin who, as you all know, are my women. I love them both from the first day I got a membership here over a year ago.
angel0diablo said onMar 01, 2005 01:55 PM
I just officially had my heart stop four times in a row... and I cannot begin to count how many times...
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angel0diablo said onMar 01, 2005 01:55 PM
I just officially had my heart stop four times in a row... and I cannot begin to count how many times...
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dollbabyamy:
I am so glad that things are going so well for you! I thought you disappeared but then I noticed the screenname I hadn't seen before- Mistress-Jolie...I like it!
unique3:
hey there.. I'm planning to move to cali next fall and just wanted to start talking to people ..making new friends.
so HI!
so HI!
"love I get so lost, sometimes
days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
when I want to run away
I drive off in my car
but whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are
"all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside
"in...
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days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
when I want to run away
I drive off in my car
but whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are
"all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside
"in...
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coolwater:
Do you ever write a short journal? LMAO.... 
shayne:
i love any movie with Angelina in it. I'm so predictable.
thanks for your sweet birthday wishes...
thanks for your sweet birthday wishes...
our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
we ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
actually, who are you not to be?
you are a child of God.
your playing small doesn't serve the world.
there's nothing...
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our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
we ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
actually, who are you not to be?
you are a child of God.
your playing small doesn't serve the world.
there's nothing...
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ciderx:
Hey!....thanks for the happy birthday a few weeks back....
sluttygoodgirl:
What a beautiful thing that is, the words of Mr. Mandela. Amazing. Hope you have a good week-end.
JOURNAL:
on friday night I called a guy I had dated briefly in the beginning of the year. the news was devistating... only to my pride. the results is uping my doctor's appointment for treatment of a bacteria.. that is if I even have it - and I had to make some phone calls... the ones I never thought I would make.
'tis no matter....
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on friday night I called a guy I had dated briefly in the beginning of the year. the news was devistating... only to my pride. the results is uping my doctor's appointment for treatment of a bacteria.. that is if I even have it - and I had to make some phone calls... the ones I never thought I would make.
'tis no matter....
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latchbeam:
There are two types of people in this world: People who know about infections and people who don't. If that guy knew about it... he has dealt with it before.
Sorry about the boot! A friend of mine in NYC just got caught... She had $1400 worth!
Sorry about the boot! A friend of mine in NYC just got caught... She had $1400 worth!
silveronthetree:
Keep well sweetie.
everytime I go there into his arms I feel like I am drifting below the surface of some greenish blue waves and I cannot breathe unless he is by my side to kiss whenever I like. there are moments where I just wanted to pull down his pants in the middle of our time and "blow" his mind, I wanted to so much but I...
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latchbeam:
Incubus rocks!
sexyaleksey:
What kind of Gigs are you booking :| .. i didn't know u do gigs ... hehe ... dying to find out!
Fucking Valentine's Day. I love two people this day for two very different reasons. To Prince Charming went the following email - and the ex is around quite a bit lately for me, letting me have Javert at his house and all... and I DO love him - but I have been there. Do I want to go back? I do not know. But I...
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eugene:
You rock girl! It takes a lot of guts to do what you did! You put it out there for the Prince and that is to be commended of you. What more can you possibly do? And if things with him go south, you know you have all kinds of boys just sitting at your beck and call.
As for regrets, leave that kick ass song for Sinatra to sing about. There shouldnt be any as long as youve learn from them and apply them to your daily life. There more like events or experiences that help you in discovering who you are, who you want to become, and who you dont want to be. I wouldnt worry about it too much if I were you.
Good luck darlin.
As for regrets, leave that kick ass song for Sinatra to sing about. There shouldnt be any as long as youve learn from them and apply them to your daily life. There more like events or experiences that help you in discovering who you are, who you want to become, and who you dont want to be. I wouldnt worry about it too much if I were you.
Good luck darlin.
_catalyst_:
I would have done somethin similar. It's so much easier putting thoughts on the screen than speaking them. I would say you've made it clear what you want, now you just have to chill and wait.
JOURNAL:
ODE TO LOS ANGELES:
Just got home from the second day in a row (go me) of running at RUNYON CANYON in Hollywood. Have I mentioned how much I love looking at the city from up there? Right at the top is Mullholland Drive - I know I have written about it before. While looking out on the panarama of the view from...
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ODE TO LOS ANGELES:
Just got home from the second day in a row (go me
) of running at RUNYON CANYON in Hollywood. Have I mentioned how much I love looking at the city from up there? Right at the top is Mullholland Drive - I know I have written about it before. While looking out on the panarama of the view from... Read More
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javert:
Hey! I just now got home from work. I'll probably be sleeping 'til around noon. But I'll give you a call regardless....
thelibra:
i can only listen to that song in la, you know.
In response to an email today:
"So & so",
I do not sell sex. That is not on the menu. I will come out for a paid weekend as an escort if you like... I am very good company. However, I have a special someone I see that I have every intention of keeping as my #1. As for companionship and an escort, I can...
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"So & so",
I do not sell sex. That is not on the menu. I will come out for a paid weekend as an escort if you like... I am very good company. However, I have a special someone I see that I have every intention of keeping as my #1. As for companionship and an escort, I can...
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dankrubis:
Hey babe.
You are tooo fuckin' funny. Great e-mail. Beware, if you do go, bring a weapon. There's something unstable in his words...
Sorry, but I'm not gonna be here this weekend, gotta go to Mexico with the gf to eat live clams and drink beer all day with people that can actually drink more than me. Yeah, damn. But if you find yourself out here during the week, i'm out of school by 2 mwf, and 7 on t/th.
And that piece of mine is meant to be a full piece, comments included. (Come on, I'm no poet, but I can come up with better poetry than that!) I just wanted to try something silly.
Good luck you crazy bastard. And it's "fuckin' a" not "fuck an A" Hehehe.
You are tooo fuckin' funny. Great e-mail. Beware, if you do go, bring a weapon. There's something unstable in his words...
Sorry, but I'm not gonna be here this weekend, gotta go to Mexico with the gf to eat live clams and drink beer all day with people that can actually drink more than me. Yeah, damn. But if you find yourself out here during the week, i'm out of school by 2 mwf, and 7 on t/th.
And that piece of mine is meant to be a full piece, comments included. (Come on, I'm no poet, but I can come up with better poetry than that!) I just wanted to try something silly.
Good luck you crazy bastard. And it's "fuckin' a" not "fuck an A" Hehehe.
lavonne:
Thanks! Currently I'm not taking friend requests, though. It's nothing personal, and it doesn't mean I don't like talking to people.
<3
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well I added to my entry yesterday some really nice reflections... so nice I want to reiterate them again.
I miss that feeling of holding someone and, no matter the relationship, having that one moment between two people where it is just okay TO BE. I just want to be with someone, just be myself. And be loved.
I think I deserve that much.
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I miss that feeling of holding someone and, no matter the relationship, having that one moment between two people where it is just okay TO BE. I just want to be with someone, just be myself. And be loved.
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javert:
I hope you don't have a date for Valentine's Day....yet
stasia:
YAY!!!!!!!!! that would RULE!!
-kev