JOURNAL:
I feel the dark cloud moving in over my head again....
I feel uninspired... and a little disappointed in myself. Why? I partied this weekend... and I know better than to. Not because I am ashamed, but I just really do not totally enjoy it... and my ex had called me on the phone and made the comment that I sounded really fucked up...
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I feel the dark cloud moving in over my head again....
I feel uninspired... and a little disappointed in myself. Why? I partied this weekend... and I know better than to. Not because I am ashamed, but I just really do not totally enjoy it... and my ex had called me on the phone and made the comment that I sounded really fucked up...
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JOURNAL:
Thank god I have had some response.
some of my works;
It is not that I cannot change
I've been thru all I want to (at this point)
It's not that I don't care but my cards do not add up.
for me and your expectations....
{Chorus}
I need to let go
I have to let go
if I do not, you will drag...
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Thank god I have had some response.
some of my works;
It is not that I cannot change
I've been thru all I want to (at this point)
It's not that I don't care but my cards do not add up.
for me and your expectations....
{Chorus}
I need to let go
I have to let go
if I do not, you will drag...
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silveronthetree:
Hope your bro is Ok.
Nice lyrics! Describes you feelings well. SOunds like the right choice.
best off luck.
[Edited on Aug 23, 2004 5:57PM]
Nice lyrics! Describes you feelings well. SOunds like the right choice.
best off luck.
[Edited on Aug 23, 2004 5:57PM]
recipeforhate:
Hello.
Hello.
JOURNAL:
So the visit to the shop went... well, depends on how you look at it. I think by the time I finish this entry, I might have digested it all well enough to make a conclusion for you all.... I hope anyway.
Obviously, as you all know, I am in the precarious existence of doing what I want when I want because I want...
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So the visit to the shop went... well, depends on how you look at it. I think by the time I finish this entry, I might have digested it all well enough to make a conclusion for you all.... I hope anyway.
Obviously, as you all know, I am in the precarious existence of doing what I want when I want because I want...
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dirtylilmonkey:
I agree with SluttyGoodGirl. That shit sux....And you are so sweet. Rock on baby!!!!! 
sluttygoodgirl:
This makes me sad. I think that you really don't want him, you just wanted to win. And think of being in that girls place. If he really wanted you, he should have cut things off with her first. Ah, but I know (FUCK, I know all too well), that things like this are never done with respect for the other person involved. He did it to her, there's no reason he won't do it to you. And then who won?
This makes me sad. I think that you really don't want him, you just wanted to win. And think of being in that girls place. If he really wanted you, he should have cut things off with her first. Ah, but I know (FUCK, I know all too well), that things like this are never done with respect for the other person involved. He did it to her, there's no reason he won't do it to you. And then who won? JOURNAL:
So, amazingly enough, I am again surprised by my lack of faith in myself. It is like I KNOW how awesome and better off I am without having to deal with my lame ex and his current live-in girl situation... but I cannot avoid it as I discovered last night.
Since I am working this week on the Westside (Malibu, close enough), I am...
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So, amazingly enough, I am again surprised by my lack of faith in myself. It is like I KNOW how awesome and better off I am without having to deal with my lame ex and his current live-in girl situation... but I cannot avoid it as I discovered last night.
Since I am working this week on the Westside (Malibu, close enough), I am...
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ixion:
HA HA - what a journal entry... I could see it all happening... the cars, the sound of the beach in the background, tedious small-talk during the bag exchange, the clinging new girlie, you squirming wanting to get the fuck out of there....
but I like the ending the best... where you meet up with IXION in NYC and burlesque your way to the top!!
but I like the ending the best... where you meet up with IXION in NYC and burlesque your way to the top!!
skylar:
where do you live?...come up, I'll figure out something, if not you can just wath me be drunk. Mamalove and I are making superjoint come up here and visit us more..so, maybe maybe....
JOURNAL:
I hate my job. I am working again this week in Malibu for the uber-bitch boss.
She is such a bitch to me. I hate it. I wish she would hire someone and get on with being absorbed with them.
How could there be any interest in me if I am leaving? I cannot be swayed by her influence and have recently challenged her...
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I hate my job. I am working again this week in Malibu for the uber-bitch boss.
She is such a bitch to me. I hate it. I wish she would hire someone and get on with being absorbed with them.
How could there be any interest in me if I am leaving? I cannot be swayed by her influence and have recently challenged her...
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ixion:
Hey sexy over-qualified one,
I got those B/W prints of the dancers/Cyclone back-drop printed up for you. They came out a bit 'pixelated' sp? - but still look cool. Lemme know if you still want 'em and how I should deliver the goods...
I got those B/W prints of the dancers/Cyclone back-drop printed up for you. They came out a bit 'pixelated' sp? - but still look cool. Lemme know if you still want 'em and how I should deliver the goods...
ixion:
I scanned the venicelife site but I didn't see many articles there... do you need to be a 'member' to access the stories. But yeah, write for the site - you have a great way of expressing yourself in a mesmorizing 'stream of consciousness' type way... so I vote yeah.
Don't worry about the 'call tag' stuff sweetie... its no biggie. I think just email me a ship address and I'll send these off. If you think they are too pixelly, I can send you a higher rez pics by email, and your friend can print it out perhaps better over there.
lots a
Don't worry about the 'call tag' stuff sweetie... its no biggie. I think just email me a ship address and I'll send these off. If you think they are too pixelly, I can send you a higher rez pics by email, and your friend can print it out perhaps better over there.
lots a
JOURNAL:
just settling into my new space at the nuevo casa, the room is as small as my last apartment space. the living room needs to be rearranged - and my step-dad will hate me for doing it.
i am going to do it anyway. i have to live here pot-free. i have to do SOMETHING with my time besides work.
the good thing is...
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just settling into my new space at the nuevo casa, the room is as small as my last apartment space. the living room needs to be rearranged - and my step-dad will hate me for doing it.
i am going to do it anyway. i have to live here pot-free. i have to do SOMETHING with my time besides work.
the good thing is...
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lostanddazed:
Free pot..... 
how'd your work that out....thats worth moving back home for 
how'd your work that out....thats worth moving back home for 
thepirate:
I do what I can.
I lived for a year in Upland while I was in college out in claremont. Not a fun place to live.
I lived for a year in Upland while I was in college out in claremont. Not a fun place to live.
JOURNAL:
I have been leaving my mark everywhere this morning....
but, like Marc Anthony, :sings with latin accent: "I need to know".
What do you think of leapord leash use in the bedroom? It is a serious and important issue that needs to be discussed.
The long awaited... UPDATE!
last night I ventured to the house of my beloved Prince Charming and proceeded a nice...
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I have been leaving my mark everywhere this morning....
but, like Marc Anthony, :sings with latin accent: "I need to know".
What do you think of leapord leash use in the bedroom? It is a serious and important issue that needs to be discussed.
The long awaited... UPDATE!
last night I ventured to the house of my beloved Prince Charming and proceeded a nice...
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boundcreature:
no time to read your journal right now, but i just wanted to let you know that i have a leopard print futon in my room, so you can assume my stance on leopard print ANYTHING. 
throb:
I JUST HAD THE LONGEST MOST POWERFUL ORGASM AFTER CLEAN MY RIFLE FOR ALMOST TWO HOURS. YEAH ME.
[Edited on Aug 13, 2004 12:36AM]
I JUST HAD THE LONGEST MOST POWERFUL ORGASM AFTER CLEAN MY RIFLE FOR ALMOST TWO HOURS. YEAH ME.
[Edited on Aug 13, 2004 12:36AM]
JOURNAL:
So I had a number of things occur while I was without internet for the past five days.
I spent my last few hours in my apartment this morning from 3:30 in the morning when I finished moving all my crap. I slept for about 4 hours and then got up to take the frickin Uhaul back. That smarts let me tell you... and...
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So I had a number of things occur while I was without internet for the past five days.
I spent my last few hours in my apartment this morning from 3:30 in the morning when I finished moving all my crap. I slept for about 4 hours and then got up to take the frickin Uhaul back. That smarts let me tell you... and...
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damn_pretty:
i hate when guys don't take no for an answer, i have a guy friend who just can't take a hint that i dont want to go out with him.. and THEN they get mad at us when we come off as a bitch. ha! the nerve.
ixion:
You're too damn cute - I love you!
I can definately print out the photos... do you want all 3? Give me a few days to pick up some really nice photographic paper, etc. When I have these ready - you can email me your snail mail.
I think the pics will look awesome in a black/white room - and I'll be honored to have my troupe represented in such a cool atmosphere as you are creating (really )
honey chile, please explain to me what is the leopard leash??
I can definately print out the photos... do you want all 3? Give me a few days to pick up some really nice photographic paper, etc. When I have these ready - you can email me your snail mail.
I think the pics will look awesome in a black/white room - and I'll be honored to have my troupe represented in such a cool atmosphere as you are creating (really
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honey chile, please explain to me what is the leopard leash??
JOURNAL:
I am a turbo slut.
I had a meeting-up with a really hot guy from Chino Hills last night, we made out, he so was not smooth enough... and yeah, I am seriously not impressed.
So am I the only one who has found great sexual partners just out of dumb luck the last few gos? I have NEVER had as bad a partner...
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I am a turbo slut.
I had a meeting-up with a really hot guy from Chino Hills last night, we made out, he so was not smooth enough... and yeah, I am seriously not impressed.
So am I the only one who has found great sexual partners just out of dumb luck the last few gos? I have NEVER had as bad a partner...
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chickwithwings:
Well... if you ever lust after me.... just let me know and I'll be right over 
ixion:
how did the move go??
JOURNAL:
So that party turned out to be more of a sausage-fest... I personally did not mind but, as Jonny Wah Wah said: "More females would have created a better conversation dynamic.." or something like that! Good times though had by all I think.
enso showed, shared his homage to the party gods with us all, it was great. Unfiltered sake, that is a new...
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So that party turned out to be more of a sausage-fest... I personally did not mind but, as Jonny Wah Wah said: "More females would have created a better conversation dynamic.." or something like that! Good times though had by all I think.
enso showed, shared his homage to the party gods with us all, it was great. Unfiltered sake, that is a new...
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monkeybutt:
my results: (i don't know babe, you're more of a bitch than i'm an asshole. maybe it just won't work out.
YOU ARE 26 % ASSHOLE/BITCH !
You may think you are an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is you are a good person at heart. Yeah sure, you can have a mean streak in you, but most of the people you meet like you.
ps. oh, but hey, i'm bettie paige too!
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YOU ARE 26 % ASSHOLE/BITCH !
You may think you are an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is you are a good person at heart. Yeah sure, you can have a mean streak in you, but most of the people you meet like you.
ps. oh, but hey, i'm bettie paige too!
[Edited on Aug 06, 2004 12:04PM]
JOURNAL:
I hate my job - cannot wait to leave.
Party was interesting, will update later.
my boss is a bitch, uber bitch.
blah!
~ the angel*
nice to see you enso. you are nice to look at, and intelligent.
I hate my job - cannot wait to leave.
Party was interesting, will update later.
my boss is a bitch, uber bitch.
blah!
~ the angel*
nice to see you enso. you are nice to look at, and intelligent.
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johnnystrange:
Hey, that sucks I couldn't make it to your party. One of these days we'll get to hang out
monkeybutt:
i wish i could have made it. we'll hang some day.
JOURNAL:
For some reason the last post did not go through. Good thing too.
So tonight I have a lot of shit going on, forgive me for the sailor speak.
I am having a get together at mi casa since I am moving out of my apartment by the end of the week... I just cannot stand the thought of staying through the weekend with...
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For some reason the last post did not go through. Good thing too.
So tonight I have a lot of shit going on, forgive me for the sailor speak.
I am having a get together at mi casa since I am moving out of my apartment by the end of the week... I just cannot stand the thought of staying through the weekend with...
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bigheadwolff:
dude i so saw you at the SG show. you had on a white tang top and blck skirt with your glasses on. I was sitting right in front of you on the balcony. There were two girls at my table with me and you were talking to some guy with dark hair.
monkeybutt:
hey, how was the party?
oh, and as for your advice to me: should i buy a new mini cooper or a used one? and should i shave my...ur, never mind that one...