I guess I don't know what I expected her to say.
I'm trying my best, still, to be that example of a dude that can support young women on Bigo without exploiting them. By support I mean speak them for and silence some of the harassment so they can still have fun.
To that end I'd had a conversation with one of the bigo reps for the US region and has hashed out with her a concept of parental consent. A form which would be notarized with a parent or guardian.
The problem has been that the one youngster that I'm trying to get to be able to broadcast but had gotten banned at new year's, most likely won't bother coming back because it's been too long and she's got other things on her plate now.
There are others.. but they don't seem to be getting banned. It felt like it was either them picking on her, or just that they specifically targeted the younger looking ones. She's smol so it's possible they don't even believe she's 15. That's underage regardless.. but she looks like a kid.
It just pissed me off because she's a good broadcaster. For the most part she behaves herself.
So since she's been off for weeks I've been refocusing on others. One of them has been in the app for over a year and as far as I know, she's still on one of her first accounts. She doesn't get targeted. There's a few 14 to 16 that don't get banned. So I was worried that maybe it was just me she's been banned while I was around. Being than I'm a grown man there's no reason I should be dealing with them at all. Fine. But no one else is looking out for them. They are getting harassed and picked on.
There's this one other dude that spends money on the app and until someone said something, I just hadn't noticed that he spends it on only the youngest girls. I'm not trying to judge him but.. it is weird. People call him a pedo but there's nothing I can say otherwise from what I've seen. I've never seen him try anything. What goes on outside of bigo though isn't my business so.. I can't judge.
So the girl was broadcasting and the bigo rep I'd been talking to came in and was just hovering. I wasn't exactly worried.
The other grown man was trying to warn the girl and me that one of the big shots was watching and that the girl was about to be banned.
This would be totally typical because there'd been several VIPs that has come in to the broadcast and hovered a bit then left. When they do that it's usually because they are about to get the broadcaster banned.
The other dude was like.. why's she not getting banned. I just replied 'not today'. Although she was flexing and stretching and showing her stomach. Typically more than enough to incite white knights to report her.
Because my point has been that they aren't doing anything. She was just bored, doing nothing and moaning about it on Snapchat, so she decided to get on Bigo. That's what she's been doing for months now. There's no reason to ban her.
But I'm not going to lie.. she IS provocative. Almost all of them are. I can't make her stop flashing her belly or dancing provocatively. But she's just having fun. She's not dancing for money or to get any of these idiots excited for her teenage body.
When the other one got banned she was also just having fun. I'm assuming it broke her heart to have been banned. It did mine. Showing her stomach too much is probably worth the ban but it's just bullshit for a girl that's just trying to have fun. She liked to say she has nothing to show. Regardless, it isn't the point.
I say assume because although we've reconciled a little we just don't talk as much as we used to. Which is that she doesn't approach me as much as she's done before. Almost not at all and I'm still not sure how it's affecting me or her. But I'm sitting back.
Somehow I can't give up on Bigo so even though she's not on anymore.. and several others are also gone.. there's still a couple left.
Outside of bigo and the one that isn't probably going to come back to Bigo, I have some of them on Snapchat and Xbox and PS4. For the most part none of them come to me, and I don't really expect them to.
But then the other day she did out of the blue.. I was kind of blind sided because I haven't really spoken to her just one on one.. and wasn't at the moment up to it. I tried carrying on the conversation a little and almost got myself trapped into buying her a new phone.
I had no idea that iPhone 7 was still going for 500 to 800 dollars. And as far as I know she doesn't need it.
It kind of got tabled. Not that I can afford it anyway.
So today after the bigo lady had come in and left without banning her the topic of the phone came up again. He bf or... I'm not sure if they are still together came in.
He happened to say he makes 8000 a week. I'm hoping he meant 800 but even that's more than what I make.
So I'm like you should buy it for her. He's like, paraphrasing, fuck that.
He also said why bother when she makes her own money. That's what I said.. was like I'd consider going half in if anything.
Then she's like well the boy should buy it.
And then I'm like well what's the boy supposed to get out of it?
Immediately felt barefoot in a room full of rocking chairs.
She's like well a lap dance, a blow job.. sex. That's what boys want these days.
I'm like omf. I can't get any of those things from you soooooooo.. I'm out.
But, and not for the first time, I've had to stand back and wonder how she's able to just say things like that. I've heard her talk about her life for months and I guess I'm not surprised and should have known better than to open that door.. but still.. omf
Thank fuck she didn't say that while the bigo lady was still watching because it's those little things that would totally unravel what little veneer of decency I have while intentionally barefoot in this room full of rocking chairs.