Never needed to call her because she was always there. I only called her when she asked me to.
I've always been there to serve needs that aren't my own. I don't 'want'. It isn't right to want anything from anyone.
Didn't have enough time go by to really miss her until I had to say goodbye. And when I said goodbye I said I'd miss her. I'll miss her for as long as I can hold on to the memory of her.
While she was gone I called out to her the way I knew she'd hear me but she didn't reply. Until a few days ago when she finally did.
What am I supposed to do? Stop? How? Same as before I wouldn't know how and even now that I've made peace with her not being there I'll call out to her as I have for months because I want to. I want to as I always have wanted to have her in my life.
But I have to stop calling out to her. I have to put that all away because it isn't right to want.
