Wow, Google maps Streetview is such a colossal stalker tool!
I haven't seen this girl who was my everything since the beginning of the year.. weren't even friends but I don't want to continue being such an idiot since I apparently will never get over her.
SO
While planning my route to another old friends house to celebrate her youngest daughter's birthday, where I haven't even been to their place in 3-4 years maybe, I decided to use Google Streetview to get a better idea of how to get there. Since I have to leave in an hour and a half, and even though I know the way, better to be certain.
The problem is the way to her house is through 2-3 other towns.
It's like going from the bottom of an ear or question mark to the other end at the top.
So while I shouldn't have.. and I mean really shouldn't have, I looked up the other one's house. It's like 2 minutes off the way to my old friends house.
Even funnier because both have the same name with practically the same initials.
It would be super stalkerish to taking that 2 minute detour, but what's super funny is that I know that's where she lives since her car is in the Streetview picture. So while Streetview at least blocks out license plates.. there's no point if you already know the car and where it should be parked.
So. While I feel like a stalker for seeing her parked car and high resolution picture of her house. I'm not a stalker. It's nothing I didn't already know and haven't done anything about, thus respecting her wishes, even though it at one time literally burned like fire in every fiber of my being. When she left it was cathartic in a burried under a mountain of shame kind of way.
Even so, I shouldn't have employed Pegman to do the leg work, or at least show me the results. But it is done. I can't be any closer to action without being behind the wheel. And I can't unsee her car and high resolution house. Which tells me at least within the last few months, yes, she does still live there. Even though she didn't trust me. Everything I told her was true. I begged for that trust and circumstances and stupidities aside, I've always wanted to deserve that trust, and in some meaningful way I still want to deserve that trust even in the face of a very credible reason to drive down her street. Guess you just can't pick your friends, or expect to keep them after that awkwardness occurs.
I have a party to go to, and it is still up to me, without getting metaphysical, to NOT take that detour. To leave the past dead and buried no matter how much I want to oh so casually end up in front of her house, several months removed from the most awkward year of my life.
Do I want that kind of action, adventure, misery? even if the chances of something good coming out of it... being a fraction of a percent.
Suppose I miss her enough to keep thinking about her, constantly... and in trully disturbing detail.
So am I wirting a testimonial for Streetview? Well.. the only way it could be creepier, which I posted on facebook is if Google had arieal bots that went out to keep information up to date.
Otherwise technology thankfully doesn't permit veiwing Pegman walking the trip. It could be done but streaming the high resolution pictures is too much for even DSL connections. Maybe in another couple of years when they decide to just render everything instead of using pictures....
I haven't seen this girl who was my everything since the beginning of the year.. weren't even friends but I don't want to continue being such an idiot since I apparently will never get over her.
SO
While planning my route to another old friends house to celebrate her youngest daughter's birthday, where I haven't even been to their place in 3-4 years maybe, I decided to use Google Streetview to get a better idea of how to get there. Since I have to leave in an hour and a half, and even though I know the way, better to be certain.
The problem is the way to her house is through 2-3 other towns.
It's like going from the bottom of an ear or question mark to the other end at the top.
So while I shouldn't have.. and I mean really shouldn't have, I looked up the other one's house. It's like 2 minutes off the way to my old friends house.
Even funnier because both have the same name with practically the same initials.
It would be super stalkerish to taking that 2 minute detour, but what's super funny is that I know that's where she lives since her car is in the Streetview picture. So while Streetview at least blocks out license plates.. there's no point if you already know the car and where it should be parked.
So. While I feel like a stalker for seeing her parked car and high resolution picture of her house. I'm not a stalker. It's nothing I didn't already know and haven't done anything about, thus respecting her wishes, even though it at one time literally burned like fire in every fiber of my being. When she left it was cathartic in a burried under a mountain of shame kind of way.
Even so, I shouldn't have employed Pegman to do the leg work, or at least show me the results. But it is done. I can't be any closer to action without being behind the wheel. And I can't unsee her car and high resolution house. Which tells me at least within the last few months, yes, she does still live there. Even though she didn't trust me. Everything I told her was true. I begged for that trust and circumstances and stupidities aside, I've always wanted to deserve that trust, and in some meaningful way I still want to deserve that trust even in the face of a very credible reason to drive down her street. Guess you just can't pick your friends, or expect to keep them after that awkwardness occurs.
I have a party to go to, and it is still up to me, without getting metaphysical, to NOT take that detour. To leave the past dead and buried no matter how much I want to oh so casually end up in front of her house, several months removed from the most awkward year of my life.
Do I want that kind of action, adventure, misery? even if the chances of something good coming out of it... being a fraction of a percent.
Suppose I miss her enough to keep thinking about her, constantly... and in trully disturbing detail.
So am I wirting a testimonial for Streetview? Well.. the only way it could be creepier, which I posted on facebook is if Google had arieal bots that went out to keep information up to date.
Otherwise technology thankfully doesn't permit veiwing Pegman walking the trip. It could be done but streaming the high resolution pictures is too much for even DSL connections. Maybe in another couple of years when they decide to just render everything instead of using pictures....