firstly, thank you to everyone who left beautiful, inspiring comments on my last blog, believe me they all helped, and i'm feeling a lot more positive about the next few weeks. i booked a holiday, which i think is something i was in desperate need of, so i have that to be excited about now.
i handed in my notice at work yesterday actually, and it was like a weight had been lifted. i've thrown myself into exercise, that sounds really lame, but in some sick way, i really enjoy it. i've worn my body out over the last few years, and i feel it needs some looking after now, so that's my new priority.
i went to collect my keys for my uni accomodation, and although it was like a little box of a room, i have to say i fell in love with it. it is my space and no one elses, and that felt so unbelievably liberating. maybe uni won't be a bad thing after all.
i also went to thorpe park for the third time in a month, and i've got to say i felt like a walking talking map. i know the place back to front now, mainly because i'm way too chicken to go on most of the rides, so i spend the day observing my surroundings
i read some of my last blogs, and i was so happy and ready for the summer, and i think i need to take a step back to that. i envy that. i miss that.
thank you for all the lovely comments on my set, too, they made me smile so much. also, i figured about my set that, i've had my time, not long ago at all, and there are so many beautiful hopefuls trying to go live, and it's their chance to get to the front page now. i think i lost sight of how lucky i was to be a suicidegirl in the first place. if i produce a set that goes to the front page then that's great, but it's more than the pictures, it's about the community for me, and i just wanted to say how glad i am to be here with all you wonderful people
i'm going to go for a run now, keeping myself busy. then i think i'm going to come back and feast on the selection of cream cakes that my stepfather bought me from the bakery, just to make my run extra worthwhile. in fact, i'll probably be imagining eating the cakes as i'm running, it might make me go just that little bit faster.
nom nom nom
i handed in my notice at work yesterday actually, and it was like a weight had been lifted. i've thrown myself into exercise, that sounds really lame, but in some sick way, i really enjoy it. i've worn my body out over the last few years, and i feel it needs some looking after now, so that's my new priority.
i went to collect my keys for my uni accomodation, and although it was like a little box of a room, i have to say i fell in love with it. it is my space and no one elses, and that felt so unbelievably liberating. maybe uni won't be a bad thing after all.
i also went to thorpe park for the third time in a month, and i've got to say i felt like a walking talking map. i know the place back to front now, mainly because i'm way too chicken to go on most of the rides, so i spend the day observing my surroundings
i read some of my last blogs, and i was so happy and ready for the summer, and i think i need to take a step back to that. i envy that. i miss that.
thank you for all the lovely comments on my set, too, they made me smile so much. also, i figured about my set that, i've had my time, not long ago at all, and there are so many beautiful hopefuls trying to go live, and it's their chance to get to the front page now. i think i lost sight of how lucky i was to be a suicidegirl in the first place. if i produce a set that goes to the front page then that's great, but it's more than the pictures, it's about the community for me, and i just wanted to say how glad i am to be here with all you wonderful people
i'm going to go for a run now, keeping myself busy. then i think i'm going to come back and feast on the selection of cream cakes that my stepfather bought me from the bakery, just to make my run extra worthwhile. in fact, i'll probably be imagining eating the cakes as i'm running, it might make me go just that little bit faster.
nom nom nom
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squee:
Glad you're feeling a bit more sorted hun, good luck at uni! 
leilani:
ooh yay im glad ur not going far!! i'm in dorset this week and next week not sure what day we're going back to essex yet though but after that if ur around i need to go to lakeside! 
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