lyris

I'm getting a new tattoo. A graduation present for myself. I'm terribly excited and really, it's just too hard to focus on anything right now. This will all get done becaue it has to get done, but I'm getting nervous. I'll post some pics when the tattoo exists.

I'm actually doing quite well at not being psychotic right now. That's pretty fucking cool. I'm not letting little things getting to me and I'm not allowing my own fears to get in the way. No, I didn't lay one on him the other night when I saw him. But I think that's a good thing, too. There's a point at which simply doing something...
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Just when I get him out of my head, he calls me and leaves a message:

Hi. I was just cutting a bell-pepper and I thought of you, so you should get out of your office and call me. Talk to you soon.

Why? I shouldn't have called him back immediately, but I did. I shouldn't have left him a long message, but I did....
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A friend of mine actually found successful results by using the "missed connections" section of Craigslist personals. How is this possible? What is the likelihood that someone would randomly check there after a silly, brief conversation? Impossible. But now I have become somewhat obsessive about looking. Not because I think it will happen to me, that anyone will write a missed connection for me, I...
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My best friend came up a few days ago to take care of me. You can tell she's my best friend because I called her in tears on Monday afternoon and by Tuesday night, she was at my door. She's been taking care of me. Making sure I eat (and have food in my house to eat), making sure my house is clean (and my...
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I won't lie. This has probably been the worst three months of my life. It's been a rollercoaster from hell with nothing to ground me, nothing to hold onto to assure me that when it ended, it wouldn't be because I've died.

But, in desperate times, I am so eager to be happy that I can find solace in the slightest of things: a card...
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A while back, I bought a book at Powell's called "Hell Hath No Fury". It's a collection of women's letters at the end of a relationship. It's just fantastic. Today was a bit internally dramatic for no particular reason other than the fact that I chose to stare at a 15" screen for the better part of twelve hours and not really ever brave the...
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A while back, I bought a book at Powell's called "Hell Hath No Fury". It's a collection of women's letters at the end of a relationship. It's just fantastic. Today was a bit internally dramatic for no particular reason other than the fact that I chose to stare at a 15" screen for the better part of twelve hours and not really ever brave the...
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I managed to do something "interesting" last night. Thank god I didn't just go home at 8 and sleep on the Friday of Spring Break. That would have been lame. Of course, as it was, it didn't feel much less lame, but at least I wasn't wallowling.

Today I got up and watched Charade. Hurray for old movies where plot lines are thin and people...
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Apparently today is a posting on SG day.

I don't know why.

Amelie is definitely a movie to watch when everything seems horrible. It's nice to have a computer again because that means that I actually can watch movies if I want to.

The San Diego Zoo pandas are making me feel old and useless. I've been waking up so early lately that I can't...
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