lyris

I'm prettymuch out of ideas at this point. I'm moving to Cali later this summer in the hopes that a change in my environment will "help" in a very broad sense. Getting myself out of the stagnancy of myself, my relationships, and into something potentially more driven, more warm, and more conducive to the work I want to be doing.

I am continually baffled by men and perhaps would like to simply persue women for a while. Went to a b-b-q today and there was a fairly attractive girl there who seemed like she might find me attractive as well. But I don't know how to approach people, let alone people I'm attracted to, let alone women I'm attracted to. So nothing came of that.

Which basically leaves tango. I can go to tango and this is currently the one outlet for my frustrations. My art has suffered again since coming back to Portland and that makes another pretty good reason for me to get the fuck out of dodge.

I am entirely unmotivated to see fireworks. The dry lightning last night didn't help any... fireworks are like the yapping chiwawa equivalent to a lightning storm's great dane rumble.