lymphae

Hi SG family. I hope everyone had a wonderful 4th, if you celebrate. Mine was pretty good. Full of family and food (which I couldn't eat of course), but I did good - the willpower was strong with me..lol. My day was good and bad yesterday. The good: I finally got to talk to my darling Pisces!!! So stoked. She is such a doll and called me and we talked and talked. I wish it was face to face, but that phone call really made my day. LOVE HER!.

The Bad: For anyone who read my blog about my friend with the heroin problem, well.....Im done with her. I can't save someone who doesn't want saving. Long story short. I was cleaning her house (don't ask, I try to help) and I got to the bathroom and found a used coke baggie, a full baggie and a needle pusher. She told me she was going for coffee with a "friend" who I had never met before. They were gone over two hours and the D&D is right down the street. So I sat there for like an hour with steam coming from my ears I was so pissed. I wanted to stay and confront her about it, but I was so mad and I knew she would deny it and lie to my face which would have pushed me over the edge and I probably would have hit her, so I left. On my way home I texted her, told her I found her shit, that she needed rehab, that I loved her but was not going to be her fool anymore and to please not call me. Of course she called, but I didn't answer.

Anyway, I'm done. My rope is really, really long. I have a lot of patience, but once you've pushed me to my limit, I'm done. And when Im done, I'm done - no turning back, no more chances. I'm sad, because she really needs help, and I'm basically the only real friend she has anymore, but I obviously wasn't getting through and can't deal anymore with the lies. So I think I made a good decision for myself. I just have to remember to NOT feel guilty, she did this - not me. I did everything I could.

Thanks for listening guys. I really appreciate it! Love you all!