lylee

well-i woke up in a great mood this morning. not too sure why. not gunna lie, i do miss him..but he doesnt care-so why should i?

i tried SO hard, yeti failed and he didn't care. thats what it all comes down to is-he does not care

so fine. go back to your ex who cheated on you SO many times. I'm not too sure if thats what he's doing but one can only assume. Ya she cheated on him 3 times and he went back. I never cheated on him at all. I treated him like gold and he treats me like this? wow, maybe i SHOULD have cheated on him

im going through all the mean things in my head that he did to me...i think thats helping a lot. so meh, fuck it

no idea if hes gunna show up tuesday to "talk" but meh. After all this, i dont even know if i want to date him. like i said, he went back to his ex 3 times after she was such a cunt, he even moved from a different province for her. and he cant even come talk to me last night? ouch. I guess there really IS someone better for me out there. Someone who talks to me when im upset, someone who doesnt break promise after promise.....someone who actually fuckin cares when im upset.

I just hope HE (the ex) doesnt wake up one day while beside yet another girl who treats him like shit and he thinks "fuck, what have i done? i lost the best thing ever" and then you know what? i'll be long gone



so i just checked his horoscope today and this is what it says

"Aquarius - October 8, 2010

A love relationship could take on a higher and more spiritual aspect during this period, creating a desire for your souls to bond. The planetary atmosphere brings you closer together, and you may experience a closer sense of intimacy. You two might spend time with mutual friends today, enjoying yourselves, but at the same time anxious to be alone. Bask in the glow."

so yeah, he probably is dating someone else..or he's back with his ex. o well-good for him

mine says

"Taurus - October 8, 2010

You're likely to want to spend some time alone with your partner today, Taurus, but with the current planetary influences at play, either you or your honey's career concerns could get in the way. An unexpected opportunity needs to be explored right away, so you might not be able to spend any time together now. Contact with friends could also prove frustrating since everyone is busy."

thing is-i dont have a honey. So, wtf does this mean? I dont even like anyone else. I'm pretty much damaged goods from this break up. Im not ready to go out and meet someone else. I dont go from guy to guy. I'm a one guy girl.

meh who knows

OH! So i'm a bridesmaid in my friends wedding, I thought it was gunna be all fun and stuff..then it came to me. i have to walk down an aisle with a guy i dont even know and i'm shy as fuck!! its a big wedding too! like 200 people! oh man im gunna cry because i'll be so happy for her, in front of 200 strangers! see THIS is when i think about my ex and wish he would be there with me..BUT, by then he'll be long gone. o well maybe I would have met someone new? heh..fuck i dont want anyone right now

its a long weekend. i might just drive and see how far i can get. i have nothing else to do...