lylee

well.. went to the beach today. was nice. bad thing is it takes about 2 1/2 hours to drive there

lots of thinking i've done lately. not too sure what im going to do. but if things keep going the way they are... im sure i know what i wanna do

i've decided i know what i want

i want to be in a relationship where me and him share a life. and where we can go to the beach and kiss..
okay so at the beach today it woulda been so nice and romantic... i was there with a friend but what i wanted was to be with someone and have big cuddles.. i dunno... meh i dunno whats going to happen. i know what i want but, well.. lets just say we dont always get what we want. i should just... fuck i dunno... but it seems like im fighting for nothing.. crap sorry this is all over the place but o well

anyways maybe i should focus on something else.. like. starting a new life? i dunno


im tired