sometimes i hate people. especially the little people. no, no midgets. i'm cool with them. i'm talking about kids.
yesterday we had these two little fuckholes come into the store and decide that vandalism is cool. these little bastards are maybe twelve or so, and they're in the store fairly often. well, yesterday, i saw them grab their bikes from just inside the front door and high tail it out of there. less than a minute later, another customer comes up to the counter and says someone poured soap all over the bathroom floor, and he had just seen these two kids come out of there. so i went to check on said floor, and then went in search of the little assholes to make them clean it up. i didn't find them of course.
the little shits had taken both of our soap dispensers out of the counter, which had just been filled up by our cleaning guy before he left for the day, and poured them all over the floor. not just a dribble here and there, we're talking about a quart or two of liquid soap. it took me over an hour to mop the damn floor, and i still didn't get all of the soap up.
i swear next time i see them, i'm locking their bikes in the storage closet and making them mop the bathroom, and then calling security and their parents.
ok, enough venting.
...
and now for something completely different...
i fell incredibly weird right now. not physically. well, maybe a little, but that's not what i'm talking about. more emotionally, spiritually maybe.
i've met a girl who is just amazing. we get along great, she's beautiful, we have a lot in common, etc... it's always exciting to meet someone with whom you hit it off almost immediately. i am really looking forward to getting to know her better and spending more time with her.
but something feels wrong. not with her, or us. just something inside me feels numb, i guess. things are still weird because of erica leaving, so i guess that's the cause of it. there's still an empty place that isn't going to be filled i think, even when someone new comes along. and i don't know what to do about that. i wish i could just say 'okay, i'm not dating until i get shit worked out for myself", but that's not always an option. she may not be around when i've fixed myself. but i feel that i'm going in unprepared, which i feel is not really fair to her, to have to deal with the leftovers from my last relationship. but it's not really fair to make her wait, even if she would. waiting for a relationship with a person is never fun, i've tried that before, and wouldn't want to do that to someone else.
to make matter just that much weirder, my friend meg called me at around 1 the other night while i was hanging out with k. meg and i dated awhile ago, before erica and i got serious. they actually overlapped a bit (and before anyone starts thinking of me as a two timer, they both knew everything). anyway, we have remained friends through out the year or so i dated erica, and started hanging out again after erica left. the feelings are still there on both sides, but we haven't really pursued anything this time around. in fact, i haven't heard from her in almost a month, so i'd kinda given up on the thought of dating her again. she was never an easy one to pin down to make plans with. so, just as i'm moving on and writing her off, she calls. i didn't answer, but she's also emailed me, and apparently does actually want to get ahold of me. i don't know what to do about the whole situation.
yesterday we had these two little fuckholes come into the store and decide that vandalism is cool. these little bastards are maybe twelve or so, and they're in the store fairly often. well, yesterday, i saw them grab their bikes from just inside the front door and high tail it out of there. less than a minute later, another customer comes up to the counter and says someone poured soap all over the bathroom floor, and he had just seen these two kids come out of there. so i went to check on said floor, and then went in search of the little assholes to make them clean it up. i didn't find them of course.
the little shits had taken both of our soap dispensers out of the counter, which had just been filled up by our cleaning guy before he left for the day, and poured them all over the floor. not just a dribble here and there, we're talking about a quart or two of liquid soap. it took me over an hour to mop the damn floor, and i still didn't get all of the soap up.
i swear next time i see them, i'm locking their bikes in the storage closet and making them mop the bathroom, and then calling security and their parents.
ok, enough venting.
...
and now for something completely different...
i fell incredibly weird right now. not physically. well, maybe a little, but that's not what i'm talking about. more emotionally, spiritually maybe.
i've met a girl who is just amazing. we get along great, she's beautiful, we have a lot in common, etc... it's always exciting to meet someone with whom you hit it off almost immediately. i am really looking forward to getting to know her better and spending more time with her.
but something feels wrong. not with her, or us. just something inside me feels numb, i guess. things are still weird because of erica leaving, so i guess that's the cause of it. there's still an empty place that isn't going to be filled i think, even when someone new comes along. and i don't know what to do about that. i wish i could just say 'okay, i'm not dating until i get shit worked out for myself", but that's not always an option. she may not be around when i've fixed myself. but i feel that i'm going in unprepared, which i feel is not really fair to her, to have to deal with the leftovers from my last relationship. but it's not really fair to make her wait, even if she would. waiting for a relationship with a person is never fun, i've tried that before, and wouldn't want to do that to someone else.
to make matter just that much weirder, my friend meg called me at around 1 the other night while i was hanging out with k. meg and i dated awhile ago, before erica and i got serious. they actually overlapped a bit (and before anyone starts thinking of me as a two timer, they both knew everything). anyway, we have remained friends through out the year or so i dated erica, and started hanging out again after erica left. the feelings are still there on both sides, but we haven't really pursued anything this time around. in fact, i haven't heard from her in almost a month, so i'd kinda given up on the thought of dating her again. she was never an easy one to pin down to make plans with. so, just as i'm moving on and writing her off, she calls. i didn't answer, but she's also emailed me, and apparently does actually want to get ahold of me. i don't know what to do about the whole situation.
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~Nightmares~
It didn't even click to me that it was YOU I met last night until we were at Denny's. I was sitting there enjoying my english muffins and sprite and suddenly, it hit me. And I felt like a retard. Hahaha.
That damn club, there's so much smoke and strobe lights and my contacts get all filmy and I can't see people half the time.
But yeah...yay, we finally met, haha. And now you can verify I really am a nerd because you saw me doing my patented "stupid dances"