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lyfetyme

nutley NJ

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Friday Sep 14, 2007

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I've made huge mistake. I've traded in part of my soul.....for what? to be noticed? to cling on to something I have no business wanting, let alone having? I think I'm incapable of learning any kind of lesson at all.

Visited amanda's friend jill and her beau brandon. They just bought a house in Keyport. "We're never giong to have a house". great. In a related topic. Congrats to Norbs and Holly on winning the bid on a house of their own.

Dustin Kensrue might be the only person alive right now who knows exactly how I'm feeling.

Legs still hurt real bad. NEED to get on my bike tomorrow and break some of the lactic acid up. stretch stretch stretch.



luke2917:
Yeah stretching is good.
What part of something do you have no part in? Why would you trade your soul for?
Sep 14, 2007
lyfetyme:
I wouldn't (hopefully). That's the problem. I doubt my motivations for certain things. of which i am not at liberty to say at the moment, or i would've just made it a private entry. But suffice it to say, there's a tree. And on this tree there is an apple. This apple represents something. From time to time, I think about what it might mean to take a bite. How bad could one little bite be. But then i realize that the apple is alive, and probably doesn't want to be bitten (at least not by me.) and i stress over the feelings of inadequacy that come from that. Now lets say there's another tree. this one has peaches. These peaches NEED to be eaten. And they're throwing themselves at me like i'm one of the "save the children" kids. but I'm not hungry for peaches.....
Take all of that, subtract all the overtly sexual tones to it. And that's what i'm going through.
Thanks for reading by the way. I didn't think anyone did.
Sep 14, 2007

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