What is going on in my LIFE??? Ok, now that I've said that little bit, I'm going to lay out a little bit about my situation.
I travel with a show and I get to spend 10 weeks away from home, which is followed by 2 weeks at home. I really wish I could find someone to have a consistent and steady personal relationship with on this show because I spend more time at the show than I do at home. There are limited options as a lot of the attractive women have boyfriends, fiancees, or husbands. My personal group of friends includes two single women and I think I have put myself into a little bit of a pickle. Several weeks ago, I got very drunk while hanging with one of the women and decided to cuddle up in her bed for the night. It was a pretty innocent night, but I got a little handsy in the morning and before anything inappropriate happened. Things got weird and after a while we both settled down and we've shared the same bed as cuddle buddies, but nothing more, which is good. I've since gotten to know her better and I don't think we would make any sort of a functional couple. However, she has shared with the other girls on the tour including the one that I am now very attracted to that we are or at least were cuddle buddies. I'm not sure if she laid out any other boundaries for the girls or expressed interest in being more than cuddle buddies. We happen to fight a fair amount over menial stuff and mostly it's not very malicious.
As all of that has developed, I started bonding with a different woman on the show, who I am now attracted to......the problem is that she is attracted to someone else..... To complicate matters, I was out drinking with both of the women and another female from the group who is married to my boss. The woman I am attracted to got drunk for the very first time. It was a lot of fun and she shared some personal information and I was also drunk and alluded to liking her, but also made a comment about the two of us sharing a bed for a night as cuddle buddies would be awkward and she stopped me and totally agreed and said she much prefers me as a friend and likes the way we are right now...... I do enjoy being her friend, but it's so hard to see her trying to go after this guy who seems to not be totally into her or her habits or anything much about her. I accidentally made a comment about him one time that wasn't very nice and she got a little offended.
I'm not really sure where any of this is headed and I may have accidentally played some cards too early or showed up a little too late or a dollar short or however you like to put those sayings that leave me standing a little apart from everyone and thinking "How the hell did I end up over here?"
Anyway, I needed to vent some of that out before going to bed tonight and wishing that I could figure things out. I also happened to talk to some women at the bar tonight and entertained them and the girl I'm into seemed to encourage me to try and take one of the home, but I am terrible at closing deals at the end of the night. That means I'm back in my hotel room by myself.....wishing I had figured out how to play the cards to bring at least one of them home for the night to cuddle with..... and isn't the one I already started cuddling because I don't think that's headed down a good road at all.... I wonder if I need to say something about that...... UGH, I'll think about it while I sleep ....
I hope everyone is doing well and I"ll post some pictures of Montreal and snow in the near future.
I travel with a show and I get to spend 10 weeks away from home, which is followed by 2 weeks at home. I really wish I could find someone to have a consistent and steady personal relationship with on this show because I spend more time at the show than I do at home. There are limited options as a lot of the attractive women have boyfriends, fiancees, or husbands. My personal group of friends includes two single women and I think I have put myself into a little bit of a pickle. Several weeks ago, I got very drunk while hanging with one of the women and decided to cuddle up in her bed for the night. It was a pretty innocent night, but I got a little handsy in the morning and before anything inappropriate happened. Things got weird and after a while we both settled down and we've shared the same bed as cuddle buddies, but nothing more, which is good. I've since gotten to know her better and I don't think we would make any sort of a functional couple. However, she has shared with the other girls on the tour including the one that I am now very attracted to that we are or at least were cuddle buddies. I'm not sure if she laid out any other boundaries for the girls or expressed interest in being more than cuddle buddies. We happen to fight a fair amount over menial stuff and mostly it's not very malicious.
As all of that has developed, I started bonding with a different woman on the show, who I am now attracted to......the problem is that she is attracted to someone else..... To complicate matters, I was out drinking with both of the women and another female from the group who is married to my boss. The woman I am attracted to got drunk for the very first time. It was a lot of fun and she shared some personal information and I was also drunk and alluded to liking her, but also made a comment about the two of us sharing a bed for a night as cuddle buddies would be awkward and she stopped me and totally agreed and said she much prefers me as a friend and likes the way we are right now...... I do enjoy being her friend, but it's so hard to see her trying to go after this guy who seems to not be totally into her or her habits or anything much about her. I accidentally made a comment about him one time that wasn't very nice and she got a little offended.
I'm not really sure where any of this is headed and I may have accidentally played some cards too early or showed up a little too late or a dollar short or however you like to put those sayings that leave me standing a little apart from everyone and thinking "How the hell did I end up over here?"
Anyway, I needed to vent some of that out before going to bed tonight and wishing that I could figure things out. I also happened to talk to some women at the bar tonight and entertained them and the girl I'm into seemed to encourage me to try and take one of the home, but I am terrible at closing deals at the end of the night. That means I'm back in my hotel room by myself.....wishing I had figured out how to play the cards to bring at least one of them home for the night to cuddle with..... and isn't the one I already started cuddling because I don't think that's headed down a good road at all.... I wonder if I need to say something about that...... UGH, I'll think about it while I sleep ....
I hope everyone is doing well and I"ll post some pictures of Montreal and snow in the near future.