I makes photos of myself sometimes.
Soon i want to do more.
I did my make-up and it made me feel so good, its been so long since i sat down and put some creativity into myself. And of course this got me flowing. Now if only i could keep it going. It won't. i know. I want a new camera - my d50 seems dated now.
I'd like to possibly try shoot a set, if only just for myself and ben
Who knows.
You need to set some time aside for yourself. Quality time. Devote it to your photography, your creative impulses and desires. You need to allow yourself to make mistakes and not expect masterpieces every time. Remember how we used to write a first draft and second draft? Artists filled sketchbooks with studies and sketches before going onto oil. Performers rehearse before they perform in public. Somehow, a lot of us feel, sometimes subconsciously, we feel that it needs to be amazing straight away and that prevents us from even starting something, we won't even try. That is what this 'normal" world does to us. Maybe this isn't your case. I am not suggesting that it is. But I hear too often "I'll start working on my album soon", "I haven't picked my camera in a year", "I haven't written a page in a while"....
Every day is a struggle. Just like recovering addicts or someone trying to lose weight, an artist is confronted every day by pressures making them feel inadequate. We must overcome these. Simple little things can help us through this. Get a cheap and small digital camera. Carry it with you. Take as many pictures as you can. Study things. Do "sketches".
Carry a small notepad or drawing book. Doodle. Draw.Write. Anything. you have nothing to prove or to show to anyone. This is all private. Same with your photos. Private until you choose that it is ready to show to others. Until then, it is for you.
Set some time aside. Mornings. Afternoons. Evening. It's amazing what can be done in 30 minutes when it is entirely yours to do with what you please.
Have fun. rediscover the fun part. It's like going outside to play once again. Have fun. Have fun.
Soon, the urge will come back with a vengeance. You will become very protective of YOUR time. You will make the most of it. Believe me, do this 100 consecutive days and you will start feeling like anything is possible again.
By the way, the photos you took of yourself are great. One feels and senses your personality and charm.
Also, getting a new camera is always a fun thing, but don't get mislead. I have a friend who thought he needed a new guitar and then new amplifier only to discover after major expenses that he was still the same and nothing had changed. If the new camera is a way to invest in yourself, great, do it. If not, rediscover you d50. Try shooting things differently. Try shooting things you've never attempted before, Find new subjects. Etc.
Invest in yourself. A trip to an unknown city or even an unknown neighbourhood with your old camera will be cheaper and more inspiring,
Take care of yourself.
SnoekieNYC
the nearest i ever get to make-up is chocolate all round me fissog