luz

The Holidays Are Over, Fuckers


but here's a few xmas pics anyhoo.











in other news...

all i want to do right now is masturbate.

i'm staying at my best friend's apt here in RVA. it is a small one bedroom apt and so therefore i have not been alone much during this visit. i sleep in the den on an air matress. if during the night, my friend or her boyfriend decide to, say, go to the bathroom, they will walk by the den.

so masturbation, even in the dead of night: always a risk.

today was a boring day. i have been thinking all day, "tonight i will watch porn and masturbate...just as soon as they go to bed." for me, this has been a diversion from the boredom--something to look forward to.

ah, yes, the fun of just plain old dirty masturbation. even now, writing about it, i'm getting a little hot, ya know?

so a few minutes ago, my best friend and her boyfriend go to bed.

score!

right?

yeah, until the phone rings. it's her sister. it sounds like an emotional, serious heart-to-heart-type talk. after all, when a teenage girl calls her big sister at one in the morning, it's not usually a short, lighthearted talk.

so my best friend gets on the phone. she gets out of bed and goes into the bathroom. she has been having asthma problems lately and has been sitting in the steamy bathroom for relief. now, as i write, she sits in a steamy bathroom, shower running, talking to her sister on the phone.

tomorrow at one i am getting my huge new tattoos finished. it will take all day. so i can't wait up much longer.

yet the porns on the TV stand...

they tempt me.

i even charged up my batteries this afternoon in preparation for the event.

i need the sleep to be able to deal with the many hours of tattooing. but good god i just want to come.

please, get off the phone and go to bed. i love you. don't be offended. i just want to watch some fuckin' porn.

here's to staying up.

later.

LUZ.