i'm almost finished with this semester, and it's such a relieving feeling. i'll only have three weeks off from school, but it's better than nothing. this program completely runs my life, and it's very hard to explain to people how i'm never free at the moment. it also really affects my ability to spend my time working on becoming a suicide girl which kills me. i feel slightly at a disadvantage since i have limited time to travel to shoots, meet with other girls, and even get on the site. i'm by no means a professional model and my sets probably aren't exactly the quality they need to be, but hopefully my newest one shows some improvement. it's my own doing, and i know this, but i'm just really feeling like an underdog hopeful. especially since my 24th birthday is rapidly approaching, and we all know getting older doesn't help. obviously being pink would be a dream, but it's not my main motivation. it's just such a nice feeling to be a part of something that i was previously considered an outcast for. i spent five years completely consumed in a relationship that someone told me i would never amount to anything, my tattoos were mutilations, and i was entirely unattractive for having them. that's long over, but it still stings to think about it. being a part of this site has really helped me get back to being who i was before i met this person. check back for my newest set being released this saturday, and PLEASE give me some feedback on it; there's always room for improvement.
xoxo.
