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Thank you SO much everybody.. you're all very wonderful. it totally made my day to see so many comments. ;P lol.

i met a really great guy.. we've been hangin out alot..

but i quit my other job too.. put in my two weeks.. so i 'm officially looking..

So if anybody knows of anything with at least decent pay, and benefits give me a...
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Eeyore's bday today..
oh and mine soon

its on may 3rd. yipee for me. i'll be 27. lots of

i'm only happy when it rains.

i'm a basketcase

went out last night for some drinkin' magoliaing' meandering...

it was fun.

i got a bit drunk

i danced my ass a lil

and conversed a lil

and now i need to go take a shower.

this is a ramble

maybe more later?

I'm soooo angry and i can hardly contain myself.

i dont know why i'm angry
i'm just angry
angry
angry
angry
angry

its so much overwhelming energy that it scatters in fifte4en million different directions. all at the same mother fucking time.

i'm sick of myself more than anything.
and my lack of an ability to give myself anything in life
that i actually deserve....
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I stole this from Pixen
TEN random things about me
10. I stayed up until 5am last night that was very enjoyable.
9. I don't like to walk around barefoot on dirty floors.
8. I can't leave the house without wearing something .
7. I almost have a Bachelor of Sciene degree in Textiles and Apparel.
6. I have a secret love of the Suicidegirls....
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i think i'm gonna

paint tonight.

paint naked tonight-- because i dont want to dirty my clothes

they've said its good to paint out your dreams.

i'm frustrated

seems my attempt to update my page correctly

has failed.

i'm having my mid-twenties crisis

and i'm going nowhere fast

i wish i could say i could think outside myself.

but i really have enough to handle...
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i smell like fresh dew
you

i smile like rose thorns
me

i swell like lovely
you

i sell like candy
me

i smell like wildfire
dove

i smile like whispers
temptor

i swell like oceans
seizer

i smile like laughter
lover

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the precancerous cells are back again.

my lil sis also found out she has a heart murmur. finds out next week how...
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that about sums it up

that was yesterday..

this sums up today



so this first poem is for today.. the second is from yesterday..
talk about mood swings. i'm the queen.. oh well. such is life.

today's poem...
brutal half day
mood: high

who knew a half day
could be so brutal
thump thump
swing as the door opens
goes thump thump some more

eyes...
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tired eyes
and tired days
tired hopes
and tired ways
tired morning, noon and night
tired of hollow stares
and shallow goodbyes


tired aspirations
tired beliefs
tired of trying
to believe

tired of dealing
tired of feeling
tired of listening
tired of speaking

soul so worn thin
this paper trail isnt' even beginning
to keep
up.

tired soul worn so thin
tired of feeling misplaced...
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