luxdivon

ok i'm feeling alot better than i was last night. crazy strange moods i have sometimes. my roommate has decided that he wants me gone by sept 1st. he's a fucking asshole. and i'm a mess, in more ways than one. i can't have what i want (a place to myself $ $ so i think i've decided that i'm going to find as cheap as i can, and just put my chin up, and try to stay focused. its very difficult for me to focus or keep a goal in sight, but i think maybe me wanting this more than anything or any person, that i can keep it somewhere near the center of everything. the trick is to save the money i would have spent towards whenever my next lease is up to get my own place. even if its just for a year. i could do so much more in a year without the constant nagging self conciousness that comes with having other people around. i wish my parents would have been penny pinchers. it would have made sticking to a budget a hell of a lot easier.