She saw the world in roses and in the fires of the night
This love, this passion, this anger incessantly keeping her from the right
to know what real love was, to understand what it was to be without pain
to be without the need to love again
Don’t open emotions you don’t plan to understand
Smoldering are ashes, flames are waiting at my door...
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shawn_:
Nice.
jdom:
the words are great the pics rock
I am the daughter of a mother who lost her first child at a very young age. I was not born yet. The death was tragic. My older sister was in the car with my parents and my other sister was with them. During that time, there were no mandatory car seats, and vanessa (my sister that died) was 2. She opened the car door,...
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tadzi:
thats awful...i actually gasped when i read that....i cant imagine how your mother must have felt.
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thats awful...i actually gasped when i read that....i cant imagine how your mother must have felt.[Edited on Dec 15, 2005 11:30AM]
shawn_:
Wow. That's quite a story. I feel so bad for you mother.
i need to find a way to make my keep
these days are getting me down, and i've
got myself in, way wayy too deep.
I see all the people and places and ways to be
why i find it so hard to pick a spot, and fill a vocation, these nights are tired eyes and ancient sighs, as my feet tread heavy, and my...
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these days are getting me down, and i've
got myself in, way wayy too deep.
I see all the people and places and ways to be
why i find it so hard to pick a spot, and fill a vocation, these nights are tired eyes and ancient sighs, as my feet tread heavy, and my...
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nish1:
*too many times the trenches have been abandoned for better thoughts, and fantasy*
yuriel:
-hugs-
know how the blues can go dear that i really do.
<3
know how the blues can go dear that i really do.
<3
i'm lost
tonight
down deep where
the dirt is like muddy waters
and the demons of the air
have the uncanny ability
to crush your chest cavity thin
it weans itself, but then as soon as it sees its chance
it wanders on by, taking whatever it pleases, or sees
...Anything could be something worth tormenting .
i'm supposed to be fighting
the demon, the...
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tonight
down deep where
the dirt is like muddy waters
and the demons of the air
have the uncanny ability
to crush your chest cavity thin
it weans itself, but then as soon as it sees its chance
it wanders on by, taking whatever it pleases, or sees
...Anything could be something worth tormenting .
i'm supposed to be fighting
the demon, the...
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endquire:
Please tell me you have all of these saved on paper somewhere. I don't know of anyone else who has so consistently blown me away. Your gifts, your talents, your beauty, your greatness, none of these things seem to have any limits in you.
i realize more an more every day that i am fiercly independent. this is why i sit on things so long(i'm also a taurus hehe) it helps me to identify with what is mine to give. if i feel like someone, anyone has an alterior motive for their own ends to knowing me, be it sex, or ideas, or possession, or control, or vanity, then...
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neuroticmess:
simply the most beautifully true words i have ever read...if only i could respond more eloquently.
socogentleman:
i think it's best that i don't comment on this.
today, unlike yesterday, was a good day.
my house is Almost, grr, clean. i want to stay up, but i have to have to have to go to the bank tommorow to put my check in the bank. so maybe i'll keep the record on repeat and just go to sleep soon, so i dont oversleep. today was also a good day because. . ....
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my house is Almost, grr, clean. i want to stay up, but i have to have to have to go to the bank tommorow to put my check in the bank. so maybe i'll keep the record on repeat and just go to sleep soon, so i dont oversleep. today was also a good day because. . ....
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furious1:
dion?(doin!) 
panthro:
i wish i could get 2 hot girls to message me! 
maybe you can be one?
keep up the good work on those songs. i would love to hear them some day!
maybe you can be one?
keep up the good work on those songs. i would love to hear them some day!
so i can't tell. if i'm just lazy. or i'm depressed, or just too distracted. my house is a mess. my laundry which is finished and folded, is sitting in the cold outside because i just wont bring it in. why you ask? i have no fucking clue. i got some papers to set up my portfolio, but now they just sit with all the...
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flyer:
lazy and depressed go hand in hand. you get in a funk and have a hell of a time shaking it....we all suffer this. "most men live lives of quiet desperation" i love that quote(wish i knew who said it). best wishes!
truthslayer:
Funny I am going through the same thing. I think in my case my heart is just someplace else and my body wants to run away to where it is hideing. It happens to us all though and goes just as easy as it comes.
my keyboard as it seeems, is just very sensitive to cold. i wont be taking it out anywhere cold from now on. it seems fine otherwise. thank goodness. i'm depressed today. day off. whole day ahead. yet no enthusiasm for life. it kicked in last night when i got home from work. slowly going from wanting to work on stuff, to feeling scattered, to deciding...
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furious1:
At least you live in Austin, we are now just starting to get the cold, it's not real cold yet.
I'm havin the unmotivated depresso's too, and I got a lot O' writin to do tonite, for school.
OH hey-- the wierd walk thing-- everytime I feel funky like a walk, go for the walk, keep my brain off (no thinkin) the best wierdest stuff happens. it's great!!!
I'm havin the unmotivated depresso's too, and I got a lot O' writin to do tonite, for school.
OH hey-- the wierd walk thing-- everytime I feel funky like a walk, go for the walk, keep my brain off (no thinkin) the best wierdest stuff happens. it's great!!!
gonzeaux:
Hot Tea and Coltrane/Monk: "Live at Carnegie Hall".....work wonders.....
Or write a song about your enlightenment....
Hope you feel better......
Or write a song about your enlightenment....
Hope you feel better......
my synthesizer is acting up again. malfunctioning. this is my sanity. i think i'm going to be sick to my stomach. 
shawn_:
Sorry to hear that. I hope it gets fixed really soon.
kennedy7:
What kind of synth is it? If it's a Roland I have a guy who can fix it cheap.
i'm back from Mexico.. it was amazing. I miss the air already........ i also finished reading 'the celestine prophecy' while i was there. Has anyone read it? what are your thoughts? i gained some good insights through it. 
billyfivecrows:
Wonderful insights and methods for living in that book...I'm grateful for receiving the knowledge. But the book itself, the story I mean, was a bit amateurish, not well written or conceived. But honestly that didn't keep me from enjoying it.
Nice to hear you had a good time in Mexico.
Nice to hear you had a good time in Mexico.
I'm going to MEXICO!! yipee..for thanksgiving. with my fam. leave wednesday. CHEERS. Be safe, and may the spirit bless you. 
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kennedy7:
Do they celebrate Thanksgiving in Mexico?
nish1:
Have a great time in mexico
A good looking gringo like you should watch out for yourself
A good looking gringo like you should watch out for yourself
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awiseman:
yow. very nice
awiseman:
yow. very nice