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Sunday Jul 27, 2008

Jul 27, 2008
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I believe my daddy put it best:

"It's called heartbroken and gut wrenching for a reason. Because it really feels like that."




On another note. I feel old.

I feel like i have to be in my late thirties at least. I look at people and think "stupid kids" and then realize I'm talking about someone my age. I look at my friends back home and think this. What the hell? When did i age 15 years in one day? I'm only 21 years old. What the fuck.

A lot of it has to do with my body. I feel tired. My cardio is horrible. I have the heart of a 40 year old. Actually.. i know 40 year olds with better hearts then mine haha. Damn years of medication as a kid. It leaves me feeling very fatigued. The rest of it has to do with stupidness. I see some of the things these people i love so much and grew up with say... and it seems kind of... childish.

What. The. Fuck.

When did partying and getting drunk and driving around all night talking about nothing and making fun of people get less appealing to me? Like seriously?



I take all this to be a damn good sign that i am long overdue to go to Disneyland. End story.
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cptpyjama:
You have maturity, not oldness. That's a good thing.
Jul 29, 2008
_margot_:
Thanks, sweetheart.

It is funny, going into the whole week, I thought about all the "me" things I would do. I think once I get home from work tomorrow I will begin to do them.

♥
Jul 30, 2008

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