luridsky

Another sad lonly day in HELL! I stopped taking my happy pills around X-mas and I was doing really well with out them but now I'm not so sure I should be off them. I feel like I'm falling back into the state of depression I worked so hard to escape from. I never did stop putting others before me, I suppose that's my problem, I tend to let my friends treat me like shit and tolerate it. Why you ask? I have no fucking clue! My therapist asked me if I though I needed to go back to the hospital. I told her that now really isn't a good time for me to be trapped inside the loony bin. That place made me even more crazy than I'm told I already am.


I don't know how much longer I can stand to wear this mask. I'm not happy. I hate where my life is headed and no matter how hard I work or dedicate myself to school I feel like I'm going no where.When the fuck will this all end?!