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Thursday Jul 07, 2005

Jul 7, 2005
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"Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own"


the song that this is from uses it it the context of don't walk away. but i myself mean it as just this exerpt reads. the problem i have at the moment is with human interaction. i am not liking the whole idea. i much prefer being able to turn around and take time out on my own with a few things to keep me busy. i can handle the kind of talking that is topic related but if anyone asks how are you i turn away. i don't want people in myt life in that way at the moment. i'd rather listen to them or talk about something , anything other than that at the moment.

i want m solitude back. i have a tattoo, that has been covered up that embodies this whole thing. and it's not by the choosing of others, but by my own that i lead my life this way. basically i do not like humans or for that matter humanity itself. i do not like pets. the only animals i have even been comfortable around are huskies. just give me the freedom of the motorbike and the road back again. fuck off with the rain, i want to ride, and leave you all behind.

and no nothing is wrong. there is no real reason for anyone to think that i am just down on myself. i'm not, rather at peace in fact, but the truth is that i find very few people i can bear to spend more than a day in a row with and at this point in time i am just saying what i really feel. humanity is a plague of epic proportions and my heart does not bleed in sorrow for those that suffer. nor condemn those that make it so. the world is naturally savage and brutal, and we have done too much to prevent the natural order taking place. they cull animals when they reach numbers to large for the territory they live in, yet none will cull the numbers of humans in a significant way.

this is not coinciding with the bombings in london. this is because i am required to do my first aid course at the moment, but truthfully if i ever come across anyone, then i will not be helping out, not because of litigation issues, but simply because i do not value life high enough to bother saving one. and yes i have been saved in the past. but i still yearn for the days where i would never have made the age of 2 let alone the many times since.

and to the few people that i actually give a fuck about. you guys are worth it. on individual merit. and to those few, sorry for the times when i don't explain and just leave you guessing. THANK YOU
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michellesg:
that drawing is absolutely amazing!!!!

i'm in awe of your talent, i love it so very very much!! (would you mind if i saved in and put in in my pics folder so everyone can see it, i'll credit you of course)

i will post a story the minute i have access to my computer again, right now it is separated in three different boxes in my parents basement. In about two weeks i will be moving into my apartment which means computer access once again. Thank god!

thanks again for the drawing, it is so amazing!
Jul 19, 2005
lowroller:
Actually, none of that needs explaining, I've been there many times. And not that long ago either.
Jul 19, 2005

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