lupin_yonderboy

Well, in stark contrast to my last journal post, things arnt going nearly so well now, least they dont seem to. This girl Karen and I went out on a date ( my first every "date" date, normaly I just end up getting off with girls at parties and relationships start that way ). We had subway sandwiches in the park, had a few pints in a pub, went to see "Kingdom of Heaven" and had a few more drinks and a smoke.

At the time i thought the date went really well!, lots of hand holding, hugging snuggling, but no kiss yet :-( considering I spent 5 nights in her bed during a film shoot a while back ( allthough nothing happend ) I think we are moving backwards, hopfuly forward motion will continue soon. A few days after the date I got a kinda negative vibe from a phone call with her, sounded like she was making excuses not to see me, but I might also just be reading far to much into the conversation.

She said she couldnt come round my house cos she didnt know what days she would be working and her phone is often "out of credit" so I dont get many texts anymore. I dont want to sound arrogant or vain but I know she is sexually attracted to me, but im not sure if she wants us to persue a relationship :-( maybe she just wants to take things slow, she had bad times with last few BF's, well thats my EmoRant for they day I guess............