I'm boy fucking crazy. There I said it. My sadness stems from a friend asking me to marry him and me realizing that I could never be happy with just him. He makes me feel like shit for having an SG account, for not jumping his bones,for not being able to say yes I will marry you. 
It makes me miserable to realize how someone feels and to not be able to return it. It makes me miserable to have a very good friend say that if I can't marry him then perhaps our friendship and everything is over, when I've been friends with the guy since we were 12.
He has always been my partner in crime and now I realize that my partner in crime is so in love with me and wants things to be a certain way, which I could easily do but I just don't feel that way and it makes me miserable.
I tried once with him and the conversations were like talking to a wall and the sex department was on & off good and then very bad and we are just so much better as friends I think.
But sometimes when you open up and say how you really feel you're going to end up hurting someone and this makes me feel like shit. I hate hurting people. I hate losing friends.
Last night my heart broke from hearing what he wanted and from me being so confused by it all. The thought of losing him in my life all together is depressing me. But I know that time goes on and I know that I can't fake my feelings to make someone happy. I am missing my partner in crime right now, but I also know that we've been through enough together and that things will come around. It will be ok.
Everyone's love has made me feel a lot better.You boys and girls are truely amazing and I love you for that. Thank You
Questions:
1. Recent favorite song?
2. Recent favorite movie?
3. Instrument you'd like to learn how to play?
4. Song title that describes your current mood?
5. What would you like to learn in general?
Mine:
1. Yeah yeah yeahs "Maps"
2. The Italian Job
3. Harp
4. Heart of Glass
5. I would like to be a good painter
I found some
's in my pocket for you! Be sure to share there are plenty to go around.
It makes me miserable to realize how someone feels and to not be able to return it. It makes me miserable to have a very good friend say that if I can't marry him then perhaps our friendship and everything is over, when I've been friends with the guy since we were 12.
He has always been my partner in crime and now I realize that my partner in crime is so in love with me and wants things to be a certain way, which I could easily do but I just don't feel that way and it makes me miserable.
I tried once with him and the conversations were like talking to a wall and the sex department was on & off good and then very bad and we are just so much better as friends I think.
But sometimes when you open up and say how you really feel you're going to end up hurting someone and this makes me feel like shit. I hate hurting people. I hate losing friends.
Last night my heart broke from hearing what he wanted and from me being so confused by it all. The thought of losing him in my life all together is depressing me. But I know that time goes on and I know that I can't fake my feelings to make someone happy. I am missing my partner in crime right now, but I also know that we've been through enough together and that things will come around. It will be ok.
Everyone's love has made me feel a lot better.You boys and girls are truely amazing and I love you for that. Thank You
Questions:
1. Recent favorite song?
2. Recent favorite movie?
3. Instrument you'd like to learn how to play?
4. Song title that describes your current mood?
5. What would you like to learn in general?
Mine:
1. Yeah yeah yeahs "Maps"
2. The Italian Job
3. Harp
4. Heart of Glass
5. I would like to be a good painter
I found some
's in my pocket for you! Be sure to share there are plenty to go around.
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1. The Nurse Who Loved Me - Perfect Circle:
"She's got everything I need, pharmacy keys..."
2. LOTR ROTK
3. Sitar
4. All You Need Is Love
5. Nanotechnology, Biology, String Theory, Astrophysics, Java, Systems Theory...and on and on, I have a lot to learn, better get started.
Crap I don't know the name. Sounds like Dave Grohl when micky cries or something.
2. Recent favorite movie?
Butterfly effect
3. Instrument you'd like to learn how to play?
Drums or guitar
4. Song title that describes your current mood?
la la la?
5. What would you like to learn in general?
Japanese