lukebunny

So. Pie was here. Awesome. If you are reading this, you are so weird!! I'm glad you came though. I had a blast. If any of the rest of you have a chance to have the lady visit you, jump on the opportunity. Seriously excellent times.

Now that I am alone again, and I have the time and space to do so. Been thinking alot. Dangerous thing to do. Mostly been comparing what I have gained over the last 6 months to what I have lost. It fucks me up. When Jessica and I ended, it seems like we both changed who we were, extremely quickly. Important, major parts. Neither of us resemble the person that the other dated and cared about for so long. How did it happen in a matter of weeks? Was the change there for years, just waiting for a chance to unleash itself? At this point, I can't even imagine being involved with the person she is now. Grosses me out. And I'm sure she would say the exact same thing. I still miss her like crazy though. Which brings me to the thoughts. I have gained so many friends here. So many great people. Despite the logic, how fantastic I know they are, I am still all maudlin and broken up about Jessica. I know I don't want her again, so what the fuck? I try to be a creature of pure logic. But I fail. Sometimes. I hate it. I was considering buying a house while living in MN. I was in a 5 year relationship. Now, I've been homeless. A ridiculous serial dater. Considering sex work. Making the plans to traverse the states as a wandering hobo. The man I was got burned out in the process of becoming. Progress is always good right? Moving forward, laterally, something. Anything as long as it's movement. So was it worth it?

Have some work Devo Bunny