luke2917

Damn it! I had a nice journal entry all typed up and then accidentally navigated away, and it lost it all.

Oh well I will do my best to re-type it.

After not being able to cut it in Chicago, I have returned home to Colorado. I was not pleased with this decision, but it has become necessary. Moving back in with the folks sucks...
but I think it will be good for me. Its funny how little things change. When I come back nothing changes. They sit and watch a movie and I sit on the computer. :chuckles:
It is weird being back here. I dont know if I should laugh or cry. Nothing has changed. Even the smell here has stayed the same. It odd how you remember the weird things like smells.
I need to get my stuff together. My life is not in chaos, but not in order. What I really need is some direction, or feeling like I have some direction.

"You can't always get what you want
But if you try sometimes, well you might find
You get what you need"

The question has become "what do you want to do with your life?" I dont know. I have many ideas flying through my head that I dont know if there is a direction I should go with any. Should I just go with the first one that comes along and run with it for a while. I have considered a getting back in the airline industry. I've thought about being a teacher, volunteering abroad, joining the Armed Forces (Yes I am aware of the current situation), being a hobo, moving back to LA or Durango. I have a business idea that I am kicking around for the Durango area. I would not be the most popular person there. I know the towns folk are pretty conserveative and would not like my idea very much. A lot of stuff at this point is up in the air, and I dont know if I would even go forward with it. By the way I have my BA, but I have no desire to go back to school and get my MBA.

So what the fuck should I be?

As the Nas Song goes:
"I know I can be what I want to be If I work hard at it I'll be where I want to be."

Thanks for letting me chew on your ear.