Wow! Even my dreams are telling me that something big is on the way! ... in the weirdest ways possible, but the underlying meanings all shoot towards growth, development, transformation, and a happy future. That's good to know, seeing as there is just so much uncertainty in this world.
I can feel it... I feel psychic haha. Its pretty cool!
It's MAY!
This makes me so happy! My birthday is in 10 days, and quite frankly, I'm not interested in "partying it up" this year... I'm more excited to be with my close friends, family, and boyfran.
I feel like I'm starting to grow up, and the transition is actually quite nice! I'm eating healthier, I'm becoming more and more active, I am happy, yet don't feel the need to put on an overdrawn, exhausted smile. No one needs to see how I'm feeling unless they are involved in my life... that's how I see things lol. I'm still reserved, and cherish this, because it means that I have a rich inner life, and can appreciate the little things. Like the sound of the rain on my window right now.
I think I'm having difficulty putting life into words right now because I'm currently working out a lot of kinks that held me down in the past.
I am powerful! I can be intimidating, but really all I want is to be influential. Before I can do this I need to get rid of both financial and spiritual debt. Owing the government money fucks a load of balls! I can't believe this is "the normal thing to do/have, is be in debt. That's fucking bull shit! This is how so many individuals stay in the place they were 5, even 10 years ago! I need out! I'm working on a plan that will make this happen. This will involve me moving to another province, or to another country to work for a few years. I'd be doing so wit the boy. Really exciting, but also scary, seeing as this is my first real relationship.
I have a really good feeling about this, and my dreams seem to as well! What happens after my debt is gone will happen to spark the ways in which I can be influential. I want to be the one that people come to for great ideas!
Ideas... mmmm
I've had days where I struggle with the idea of us having a purpose here. That we aren't just random people, randomly placed in random groupings, and asked that we randomly co exist and get along. Therefore I float in between objectivity and subjectivity. Searching for that inner flame that tells me that its okay to give myself meaning. I don't need validation from anyone else to be who I want to be. I am growing, changing, learning, obtaining beautiful life lessons. I change with the seasons. Sometimes I contradict the flow of the seasons, overtimes I become enhanced by them, (all with their different traits). I'm extremely excited for the future! I know its not going to be an easy path, but I am constantly reassured that its going to be worth the next few lines of changes that take place
Well, I think that's all for now.
Ja na! (later in Japanese)
I can feel it... I feel psychic haha. Its pretty cool!
It's MAY!
This makes me so happy! My birthday is in 10 days, and quite frankly, I'm not interested in "partying it up" this year... I'm more excited to be with my close friends, family, and boyfran.
I feel like I'm starting to grow up, and the transition is actually quite nice! I'm eating healthier, I'm becoming more and more active, I am happy, yet don't feel the need to put on an overdrawn, exhausted smile. No one needs to see how I'm feeling unless they are involved in my life... that's how I see things lol. I'm still reserved, and cherish this, because it means that I have a rich inner life, and can appreciate the little things. Like the sound of the rain on my window right now.I think I'm having difficulty putting life into words right now because I'm currently working out a lot of kinks that held me down in the past.
I am powerful! I can be intimidating, but really all I want is to be influential. Before I can do this I need to get rid of both financial and spiritual debt. Owing the government money fucks a load of balls! I can't believe this is "the normal thing to do/have, is be in debt. That's fucking bull shit! This is how so many individuals stay in the place they were 5, even 10 years ago! I need out! I'm working on a plan that will make this happen. This will involve me moving to another province, or to another country to work for a few years. I'd be doing so wit the boy. Really exciting, but also scary, seeing as this is my first real relationship.
I have a really good feeling about this, and my dreams seem to as well! What happens after my debt is gone will happen to spark the ways in which I can be influential. I want to be the one that people come to for great ideas!
Ideas... mmmm
I've had days where I struggle with the idea of us having a purpose here. That we aren't just random people, randomly placed in random groupings, and asked that we randomly co exist and get along. Therefore I float in between objectivity and subjectivity. Searching for that inner flame that tells me that its okay to give myself meaning. I don't need validation from anyone else to be who I want to be. I am growing, changing, learning, obtaining beautiful life lessons. I change with the seasons. Sometimes I contradict the flow of the seasons, overtimes I become enhanced by them, (all with their different traits). I'm extremely excited for the future! I know its not going to be an easy path, but I am constantly reassured that its going to be worth the next few lines of changes that take place
Well, I think that's all for now.
Ja na! (later in Japanese)
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xiyanlun:
Heyy Luffy! Nice to meet you! =3 I know it's fun I can't stop myself from surfing on SG... x) ^^ I'm quite happy to make friends with you! Thanks for the welcoming. ^^
aymi:
Thank u 4 ur comment! u are so fucking sexy too!!!
Linda!!!
Linda!!!