lucky7

Ok, so the guy I spoke of isn't so pathetic, I've come to the conclusion that he is just hurt.
See, I didn't break up with him 'cause we didn't get along, or 'cause he was mean to me. I went through a real difficult time & when I needed him most to tell me everything would be ok....he didn't, he wasn't there the way I needed. I told him this, he didn't get it. So then I just realized that I imagined him to be a certain type of guy...then through this I realized I had created him in my imagination & that wasn't really who he was. I couldn't be with him realizing that if we continued he wouldn't pull through for me the times I would need him most. Also, we started to drift apart & it just felt like we were best friends, not a couple. I had love for him, but wasn't "in love" with him. He had feelings for me that I couldn't return, so I didn't think it was fair to be with someone I wasn't pasionate about. I had thought that one day he could grow to be the man I once imagined him to be, but it wasn't fair for either of us to be together. So, I tried to be his friend & it didn't work out. He's really dissapointing me the way he is reacting to me being with Joe & accusing me of cheating on him & using him. I'm not that type of girl!

To anyone who got through all this....um thanks, I guess. I just had to write it down & get it out! Feels much better now.
Oh yeah, I colored my hair & HATE it!!!