Hey everyone, I wanted to make this blog to explain some things about myself, and also update everyone on other happenings in my life.
I know I'm a lot of "back and forth" -- I joined the community, I left the community for a little while, I came back -- I had an Ofans, but decided it wasn't for me (sorry to say but that is something I will never go back to, though I might make a Gumroad, I'm not sure yet)--- I used to post a lot on IG and then stopped that for a while too... I know to some of you I might be a "smoke show" and I truly am sorry if I've made any of you feel that way.
I've struggled with severe anxiety, depression, and even bipolar disorder. I'm not trying to make excuses, but I know this might help you atleast understand my behavior a bit better.
In October of 2022 I also lost my grandmother, I was really close to her-- my fondest memory of her was us watching Dragon Ball Z together when I was a young child.
Things took a turn for the worst though in January of this year, when my IRL best friend (who also happened to be my sister in law) was brutally un-alived by her husband (my husbands brother) . I'm still confused about everything, and I don't understand why any of this happened....
Honestly I know this might sound a little stupid, but she is another reason I decided to come back to the site and go for it with a passion -- she always believed in me when it came to SG, and so I feel like I want to do this for her, I know she's up there watching me and still rooting for me... I just wish she was still here with me.
So-- I decided to post this to let y'all know a little bit about my mental struggles, but also some emotional struggles I've been facing lately...
Thank you all for welcoming me into the community and being my friend.
Being here atleast helps me distract myself from my current emotional turmoil.
Thank you, and until next time,
Lucki
@penny @lust @eirenne
