lucille

So I am now a single mom. Things have been rough lately, Trying to sort out what really matters next to what makes me feel good. I guess right now my son, my work, and my sanity are what really count in this life. I have to accept the fact that I can't fix every guy that I take under my wing. Sure, I'm attracted to the ones who don't believe in living by the rules, conforming, obeying the law, blah. I like me some rebel men. I always end up with the type who need a lot of work. Before, it didn't matter because I didn't have a dependant. It was like, Whoa, you like punk, your in a band, you skateboard, you can out drink me, you have tattoos, you have scars, you're so depressed, you hate people, you eat a lot of meat, you hate republicans, you wear "the uniform," you know a lot about music, movies, literature, cooking, traveling, fashion, blah. And then.....oh, you have bad credit, a drinking problem, no remorse, no emotions, no self control, no ambition, no sex drive, no respect, no idea of what intimacy really means, and chances are I'll be covering your ass financially for the rest of my life and have to give up shopping, hapiness, creativity, my self worth, my self confidence, my sex drive. Sure, I am still loving him so, but I know that I will never be happy if I continue to settle. I think a couple of boy toys will have to soothe my soul. I need special treatment and pampering more than ever right now. I need someone to take me shopping and buy me lunch and rub my back and rub my feet and rub my..........

Sugar daddies come forth. I know you are out there. Or at least a few good men.