I don't know why, but it seem's like I've been questioning everything lately. Love, money, happiness, power, religious thought, the eternal quest for the meaning of life. I can't decide if it's money, love and power or love, money and power or money, power and than love. I mean, what is love, really? Is it just an emotion? Is it a tangable thing? Is it a chemical inballance of the brain? What is it?
Have you ever really thought about what love REALLY means to you? Is it being with someone that you care enough about to spend forever with? Is it being willing to forgive all those little things that annoy the shit out of you about that person? Is it loving them in spite of those things? Or is it an overwhelming feeling that compells you without question or reason? Is it a combination of all these things?
I knew this girl once. Her name was Aerin. She was beautiful. Her spirit and energy would light up the blackest of my days. Her smile was breath taking. She never got down on me for being less educated than her or for being myself. She really amazed me. She made me want to be a better person. I started to read again. I learned about art, music, phillosophy, history. I took grammer lessons so I could speak more clearly and properly. I thought of her every day and when I saw her, I was almost afraid to speak for fear that something horrible would come pouring out of my mouth. She was my Estella. I was her Pip. And like in the book, I went through all of this, trying to become a gentalman, trying to be the person I thought she deserved, just to watch her marry someone else. I have'nt seen her since that day. But when I think of her now, I can see through the beauty of that day straight into the sadness of her eyes. It might not have been sadness for her and I, but it was there, nonetheless. I wonder where she is, I wonder if she's still married. And I wonder.......Does she know what love really is?
Have you ever really thought about what love REALLY means to you? Is it being with someone that you care enough about to spend forever with? Is it being willing to forgive all those little things that annoy the shit out of you about that person? Is it loving them in spite of those things? Or is it an overwhelming feeling that compells you without question or reason? Is it a combination of all these things?
I knew this girl once. Her name was Aerin. She was beautiful. Her spirit and energy would light up the blackest of my days. Her smile was breath taking. She never got down on me for being less educated than her or for being myself. She really amazed me. She made me want to be a better person. I started to read again. I learned about art, music, phillosophy, history. I took grammer lessons so I could speak more clearly and properly. I thought of her every day and when I saw her, I was almost afraid to speak for fear that something horrible would come pouring out of my mouth. She was my Estella. I was her Pip. And like in the book, I went through all of this, trying to become a gentalman, trying to be the person I thought she deserved, just to watch her marry someone else. I have'nt seen her since that day. But when I think of her now, I can see through the beauty of that day straight into the sadness of her eyes. It might not have been sadness for her and I, but it was there, nonetheless. I wonder where she is, I wonder if she's still married. And I wonder.......Does she know what love really is?
ohsoeuro:
I dont belive that there really is "love",like you said I think its a chemical inballance of the brain. Most people never really find love,I think they just settle down and say...no wait they make themselvs belive they have found it. I think its very hard to find "true" love. And only a handfull of people ever really experience it. Thats how I feel about at least.
samling:
wow, what a very thought provoking question. i'm not sure i know. but i knowi'm in love with the boy i'm with now, and he makes me dizzy with his energy. he's not rich, not the most beautiful(i don't tend to go for the boys that "know" they're cute...annoying.), but when i look at him, i see more then a human being. i see a spirit i've walked this world with before(3 times). and it was an instant, visceral need to be with him. it was nothing i've ever experienced. but i know i love him and want him in my life anyway he'll allow.