luciferian

Today was pay day. I spent lotsa freaking dollars today. I went ahead and payed my rent and other bills. Rent takes out a fucking chunk..bleh. Yeah..so..another pay day has come and gone. I need to go get a few groceries and such. I need to make the rest of my money stretch the next 13 days. I gave myself and Danyul a bullshit allowance of $30 each. I spent most of mine today. Thrift shopping and hair dye.

Fuck..I had to buy more dogfood today too. No...they can't eat the cheap shit..it either consitpates them..or gives them the shits. A boxer with the explosive nasty shits isn't pretty. ..nope..not pretty at all. My little dog can eat the cheaper shit for the most part....but oh no..not Matilda. Yeah..so $30 dollars on a 40lb bag of dogfood. That's alot of fucking money. That's a bill! Ugh. Well..it's better to buy the good food...than even think of the possibility of explosive shit...on carpet. Luckily we haven't had to deal with that yet. Hopefully we never will. Fuck that shit. Ugh.

It's late. I don't have to work tomorrow. I actually have a friday off. M'lord Danyul also has tomorrow off. I think we'll go swimming. Mm hmm. Maybe I'll dye my hair tomorrow evening. Maybe.

I think we may go see the Brothers Grimm movie this saturday. I'm not sure if it'll be any good. I've caught a preview or 2. Some people are shocked when they find out that I do not watch tv..that I do not have cable..or even bunny ears. I just shrug..and say fuck tv. I read Googlenews...I hear other people's accounts of the news and other tv bullshit. I went to a friend's house recently...and they showed me all of the horrible shitty shows that I've been "missing". Some of it was pretty funny..only because it's so ridiculous that they actually make some of the most supid bullshit into tv shows..."reality shows" What utter crap. *raspberry* And so...it reaffirms my decision in not watching tv..in saying fuck tv! Mmm hmm.

Should I knit a baby blanket?? Or make a baby quilt? ..not a real patchwork quilt..just a quilted blanket. Decisions decisions. I bought a twin sewing machine needle earlier. I'm quite excited. I bought some more thread too. I finished altering a shirt the other day. I need a little work...but that's why I'm starting with my least favorite shirts. I'm taking some of my massive XL cool band tshirts...and making them into small tshirts. I think I've outgrown my super wide leg fat pants....with super big tshirts. A baggy goth of a sort? Heh. I wonder if I looked like an evil tent walking around. ..an evil tent with colorful hair. Hmm. Now I just wear normal comfy clothes. At one time...the baggy shit was comfy...now it just feels like its swallowing me. The fitting clothes were so uncomfortable...so confining...and now...these are the comfy clothes. I wear more than black these days too...a little color here and there It's odd though...I've gained a little weight..and yet I want to wear smaller clothes. When I was barely 100lbs...I was swallowed in an evil tent at all times...and loved it. Odd.

Ok..enough of this. I'm going to bed.

So...this whole enty has been one paragraph. I've just been ranting and talking and bullshitting. It's all the same..isn't it? Yes...it is. So..I've decided to go and break it up a little. It's kinda hard to break up a rant...one thought leads to another...it just flows. ..to me anyway.